Emotion express

Back to Malaysia

2010-12-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

Finally I am back!

Another few more days later, my sister will be studying in Singapore.
Packing all the things for my sister.
Looking at my mother how she packed the things carefully for my sister.
All new things,
Ranging from pencil case to bedsheets,
everything is well prepared.
Let me think back the moment before I went to Australia,
how much she loves me and care for me.

Mother,
I really love you.
How could I do just to make you feel happier?
I wish I could do anything for you,
however with my limited ability,
I doubt,
what could I do for you.

Merry Christmas mum,
and
i love you

week 3 August 1st

2010-07-31T16:31:00.001-07:00

Time flies,
this week will be week 3 for my semester.
Hope everything will be go on smoothly..
Haiz.. another few more weeks, I will be unemployed.
Perhaps now I have to work much harder for my future..

Ying Hui,
work hard ya, and move to your future!!!

oh.. this month is my youngest sister's birthday.
Have to prepare something for her....

A familiar story..

2010-07-22T23:31:00.001-07:00

在一个多月前，这个女生A从一个无名氏的女生B 得知，其实她早已对这位男生有了倾慕之心，也告诉A应该好好祝福他们.
A 在此祝福他们永远幸福快乐!

我爱你，亲爱的妈咪

2010-06-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

当一个母亲不容易，
当一个让每个小孩都称心的母亲更难。

了解到妈咪的痛心，
在远方的我同时为你心痛，
我是多么的希望能在你身旁陪伴着你。
这么多年来，
你已经为了我们姐弟妹付出那么多，
可是换来却是担忧与失望。

妈咪，
我最爱的妈咪，
我是那么希望能为你做些什么。
每次我最难过的时候，
我都很想听你的声音，
你那安慰我的慈祥的声音。
我每次开心的时候，
第一个想起的就是你。
想与你分享我拥有的喜悦。
因为我想多一点的时间陪你，
所以每次朋友邀请我的聚餐，
每次不用问爹地妈咪，
我都毫不犹豫的辞掉，
害怕你为我担心，
也害怕不够时间陪你。

妈咪，
我回来的时候，
我们一起去kampar 走一趟吧！
因为，我知道，
那里也有你很多点点滴滴的快乐和回忆。
我要让妈咪每天都能开心。
我爱你。

Unbelievable

2010-06-18T14:20:00.000-07:00

Finally yesterday the result is out,
just before logging to the webpage, my tears were dropping,
calling my mother, telling her how much fear with me.

It was out!
The link for result was posted at the website,
without thinking, I just clicked on the link,
my heart was still pounding non-stop...
At that moment, I seriously thought that I was succumbed my severe heart disease.

Just a few second,
I can see there were lots of candidate numbers,
but yet I still unsure whether I am pass or not,
I checked my email to search out my candidate number.

Found~
Remembered it deep in heart,
back to the website,
instead of searching through the whole list,
"Ctrl F" and keyed in my candidate number, and
"ENTER"
highlighted!!!

I saw my number is highlighted in blue!
I was so uncertain and click back to my email account to double confirm with my candidate number.
Yes, it was true!!
I even call my friend to pinch me!!
yeah.. it was true...
Thank you God for loving me...
Thank you mama for supporting and comforting me the whole night...
Thank you big jiu jiu' call and make me happy,
Thank you kitty being patient to stay around me,
Thank you my best friend, Sze Wang who purposely called me to give me encouragement,
Thank you yoke shan sister and wai meng brother the wishes you gave me!
and really.... Thank you everyone ~~~

鼓励

2010-06-17T15:57:00.000-07:00

昨晚听完你的鼓励，
我发现你的内心真的很强，
我喜欢上你永不放弃的精神，
听了你所说的，
让我觉得我真得很懦弱。
的确，我是真的弱了。

每天一天反复的告诉自己，
不要放弃，
大家也是一样要面对的，
为什么只有我不可以。
我开始了解当初妹妹在新家坡念书时，
每天都哭着。
可是今天的她是多么的强悍，
去到哪里都有自信的感觉，
让人觉得有点太能干了。

而我，
还是一样，
很多的害怕，
很多的担忧，
也同时很多的眼泪。

我们现在在走着山坡，
就算今天只走了1 厘米，
也算是有进步。
路有多长，我们谁都不知道。
我知道现在我不只是在走上去，
同时下着的大雨让我更难上前去，
我都走到一半了，
不可能现在就放弃，
就算一厘米也好，
就算偶尔大雨的侵袭让我绊倒，
我还是可以爬起来走的，
只要不放弃就好。
因为，只要走得上去，
我才可以实现对妈咪的承诺，
还有非洲小朋友的期望，
我知道，
我还是要走的。

不知今晚是否会下大雨，
希望是个美丽的夜晚，
要不我就得在雨中一起落泪了。

改变

2010-06-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

要么就开开心的念，好吗？
考试有点让我透不过气来了，
我开始喜欢上学新知识的感觉，
可是我讨厌考试的制度。
加上又固执，
明知道这些是不会出的，
可是不甘心为什么看不懂，
而继续都留在同一个问题上。
颖徽，先看别的先好吗？？　

可是，我真的很想知道为什么。。。。　

怎么办。。。。

明天是我重生，　还是是我的死期？　
突然，又觉得累了。。。　

Inborn genius

2010-06-10T23:37:00.000-07:00

I met one of my friend,
can be considerably inborn genius.
Everyday just watching unlimited shows and you-tubes,
and yet excellent in studies.

How much I wish to be like her,
but it seems unlikely to happen,
it is just because...

I am stupid...

+++ OIL

Happy mother's day

2010-05-08T21:07:00.000-07:00

母亲节快乐！！

Sorry that I am not able to celebrate with you this year, but deep in my heart, I love you, my lovely mother.
hugs.

Happy mother's day.
I miss eating vegetarian cake.

Back from Sydney

2010-05-04T01:30:00.000-07:00

Finally I am back from Sydney.
How nice if it is just a vacation, rather than taking my external exam.
I guess perhaps, I failed again.
I was really terrified the moment I looked at the questions.
Totally, they aren't easy at all.
The moment the first question pops up,
the first thing I wanted to utter...
Oh my God...
This is tough....
I couldn't do anything much, but to continue work hard for my future.
How much hard work do I need to devote in?

But anyway, have a great day in Sydney.
Is more a lively place as compared to Canberra.
However the people here are less friendly.
If given a choice,
I guess I prefer to work in Sydney, but stay in Canberra.
But the most important now is to work hard,
to achieve all this.

Mummy, I am sorry.
I really tried to work hard.
But I will try even harder.
The moment I stayed in Sydney apartment,
I love the environment,
and I really wish you will be here with me.
I promised will work very hard,
so that you can have a good living not only here,
but around the world.

Thank you Qian for ringing me up, the moment that I was truly depressed over not able to complete the paper again...
Hope that you enjoy your Taiwan trip in the coming 9th of May.
I really wish that I could able to follow.
After all I never been Taiwan before.
There is one more place I wish to go more,
together with mama and someone special,
it is to JAPAN!!!

yinghui,
let's work hard for all the dreams...

度过期..

2010-04-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

今天,
从新闻上得知你曾患有忧郁症,
顿时让我觉得我了解你的痛楚。
朋友，
无论如何，
你都会在我的心中活着，
你的死讯，
让我只现在为止，
真的不能完全接受。
因为，
我真的很不舍的你。

欣宁，
今天我帮你祈祷，
你听到了吗？

亲爱的上天，
请你疼疼我这个很好很好的朋友，
因为，
她真的很好。
把爱我的部分，
也分给她好吗？

因为，
让我知道
我真的很怕失去，
尤其是我身边对我很重要很重要的人。
家人，朋友，亲人。。。
我永远永远都会珍惜你们。
永远。。。

只恨太晚。。。

2010-04-21T23:26:00.000-07:00

你曾是我很好很好的朋友。
今天当我听到你死讯，
我真的吓呆了。
我不敢相信这是事实。
你都是那么的开朗，
才刚不久你与我有约，
说等我回来时与你聚餐。
我还记得称赞你的狗狗很可爱。
你开心地会我说，他是你最好的倾诉对象。
为什么会这样。

我的心情真的真的很糟糕，很混乱。
你知道现在的我真的真的很想念你。
可是不知道为什么我的头脑，
有个奇怪的图片一直在打转着，
可以想象到那天晚上很冷，
你就在黄灯的书桌前，
提起你的笔，
写了遗书，
眼泪一直在流着，
我知道你的心里的挣扎。
为什么？
你有勇气的选择不能回转的选择，
却没有勇气走下去。

今天在你的facebook 留言了，
今天在我的手机里，
有个冲动，
按下你的号码，
多么希望你能接起。
并没有，
我还是存有希望。

欣宁，
我想你，真的真得很想念你。
今晚报梦给我，好吗？　

New target

2010-04-17T02:23:00.000-07:00

My new target,
work hard and work harder!!

With my dream that I bring 100 packets of rice,
with 5000 of drumsticks,
to feed the Africa kids..

Is it possible?

I hope so,
if one fine day I would be able to do,
I will go for it.
But before that,
let's work hard for it..

To my dearest Yan yan

2010-04-15T15:47:00.000-07:00

Dear yan yan,
I wouldn't know that whether you will open my blog,
as it had been quite sometime I haven't update anything.
Ever since I had been here,
my daily routine, besides studying is still studying.
Well, in between I did cooking as past time,
but if possible would like to cook as simple as possible.

Had been stress up recently,
meanwhile I also know that you are preparing for UPSR.
All the best to you ,my beloved sister,
hope you pass your exams will flying colours.
Be a good girl ya,
Jie jie will love you forever.
Please write me something once in awhile,
because I miss you all, my family!

Loneliness

2010-03-22T15:09:00.000-07:00

Had been locked in the room the whole day,
Other than sneaked out for some food,
or going to the washroom.

Staying in front of my laptop,
with all the books scatter around.
Haiz, CTF is tough I would say.
Studying here is totally different,
the only thing I can blame is I am not good enough.

Hoping to work hard for something,
Will I succeed?
I don't think so,
but still,
I don't want to give up.

Missing terribly

2010-02-26T01:46:00.000-08:00

It had been here for a week.
Everything start to go on track,
everything move on.
But my emotion still remain unmoved,
I miss my mother a lot.

Just in a week time,
I miss a my mother's cooking.
Her cooks,
her soups,
and her love.

Roommate back to her house,
I am alone again,
missing my mother...

Mama, I really miss you a lot..

开怀

2010-02-25T11:15:00.000-08:00

谢谢你朋友,
让我觉得有新认识的感觉.
小小的动作,
勇敢的踏处第一步,
释放你的心怀,
其实你的心会开心点.

反正活着也是活着,
选择开心活下去吧!

妈咪,
我会努力的!
因为我要实现对你的承诺,
好好照顾自己,
多想开心的事情,
很努力努力的读书,
因为... 这些让我们走更远,更美好的未来!
我爱你, 妈咪!

不舍的新朋友

2010-02-08T04:20:00.000-08:00

致亲爱的燕如，

虽然跟你在一起的日子不久，
说真的也没有什么好好的相处，
可是当我知道你将要到森美兰继续就读的时候，
心里突然涌起不舍的心情。
该怎么形容？
应该是说，虽然我俩并没有什么交集，
可是当我为了升学的事在哭的那一天，
你在我的身旁的时候，
也不知为什么突然有了欣慰的感觉。
你突然的安危，
让我解放了。
其实人总是有转弯的时刻，
也是要拿起勇气做出决定的时候。
听了你的故事，
我了解其实没什么大不了。
在此，
我真的想要感谢你。
你的开朗，
你的了解，
让我觉得认识了你，
是上天对我的眷恋。
谢谢你！

还有，
新年快乐！

pre-new year yip's gathering

2010-02-07T05:46:00.000-08:00

As requested to write in English by my dear big uncle, (hehe.. he is a "banana")
however my English vocabularies are limited,
hence please bear with me for writing a poor English.

Enjoyed my pre-new year gathering with my relatives this afternoon.
I guess this is the last gathering before leaving,
I guess I will be missing many things over here,
my family, relatives, friends, foods and many others.
Another 1 more week to go.
As time flies, my heart getting much more nervous.
I am afraid that I may not adapt the new environment over there,
worrying that I may suffered from culture shock,
but whatever is it,
I will try my best.

Thank you aunties and uncles for today gathering.
For the coming one year,
I will think of you all,
the supports and love that you all directed to me.
Deep in heart, I really appreciate those all the while.
I was terribly down twice in life.
Once during my secondary period, and another time I wouldn't want to mention about it.
With my mother's love,
she arranged a relative reunion on my birthday, where all my aunties and uncles attended.
Till today, I still kept all those presents in my lovely box.
My big "jiu jiu" and ""jiu mu" presented me a pink crystal,
Big "yi yi" gave me a teddy bag,
Small "yi yi" gave me a music box,
and last but not least, my mother gave me a necklace.
What I appreciate wasn't the presents you all gave me,
but those affections were what I perceived.
Today's gathering, I felt loved again,
I know that I am not alone,
because I know that I have you all.

Obviously the most grateful person in my life is my mother,
"Mother, I really love you! "

Meanwhile I would like to post up some videos and pictures regarding on today's gathering.
Together with my cute cousins,
I kinda of enjoy their companions.

To my dear cousins Mandy and Nicole,
thank you for having fun with me. Hehe. You both are really cute till that I wanted to pinch you both rosy cheeks. However I didn't do that, as.... your parents were there... I scared later big "jiu jiu" will pinch me back.

Big jiu jiu, Mandy and Nicole

Big jiu jiu, jiu mu, Mandy and Nicole

To my dear cousins Jia Tong, Jia Rou and Jia Xuan,
hehe... I know all the while you all have good great results in your exams. All the best for you all and take care ya. But... slight reminder to you all, never hit your cousin (me) anymore, is painful!!

Jia tong and naughty Jia Rou

To dear Xian Qi,
Sorry for the late congrats on your 7A UPSR. I know you can have a very bright future, but meanwhile don't stress up yourself ya!

To dear Wei Jing,
Hey boy... I know that you are getting "sideway" . Never wear horizontal clothes, else you seems getting bigger size... hehe. Don't worry, I know that you have many "girlfriends". Well, one fine day, bring them over and let me have a look.

To dear Wei Xian,
Among all my cousins, you are the closest age to me, even though you are still far much younger than me. All the best ya. I know that you can perform well in your studies if you really study. Keep in touch ya.

Wei Jing and Wei Xian

Thank you everyone. I love you all!

My dear mother giving ang pau to my cousins... Haha. Where is mine???

小鸡蛋站起来了！

2010-02-04T15:05:00.000-08:00

哈哈，
昨天到了一个小地方，
确实的地方我不知道在那里，
只知道那里很多人，
还有很多小朋友在那儿拿起鸡蛋企图把它放在桌上。

妈咪好像意识到我的好奇，
也拿了一粒给我，
她说在立春的时候，
如果鸡蛋顺利站起来，
许个愿，
愿望会达成的！

许完后，
我的鸡蛋倒塌了！

哈哈，
许了什么？
不能说，
因为，
说了回不灵的！

抽痛

2010-01-18T07:21:00.000-08:00

心脏有点抽痛了起来，
是因为细菌的侵略，
还是思想的牵动？

数学，
应该只有你可以帮我麻醉，
彻底忘记，
对吗？

妈咪，
晚安！hugs

寻找冰冷的 “家“

2010-01-17T04:20:00.000-08:00

因为考试，
我失去了一次探望他的机会，
让我在今年内特别的思念他。

炎热的天气，
气候闷闷的。
大概有38 摄氏，
平时很少在酷热的太阳下曝晒，
可是今天因为他，
我豁出去了。

这几年来，
我真的真的很想念他。
谢谢舅舅今天抽空带我走一趟，
好让我离开前再次见到他。
因为，
我真的很想念他。

寻找了很久，
真得很久，
爬上爬下，
心里也着急了起来，
心求风的指示，
让我找到他。

找到了，
一个熟悉的脸孔，
可是却是我最不喜欢的“家 ”
我很想把你带回家，
可是，
我知道不可能了。
看到你，
我再次落泪。
我要把地址写在部落格，
SA-DL 36
好让我以后在任何时候都记得你住的新家。

爷爷，
今年我要出国了，
没办法在清明节拜祭你。
爷爷，
我真的真的很想念你。

做母亲的辛苦

2009-12-16T20:54:00.000-08:00

亲爱的妹妹，
加油哦。。。我会帮你祈祷的。
希望你的final year project 能如期的完成。
妈咪为了能陪你，能支持你，
希望能陪你的身边。
可惜一句的不要，却无意中划出了伤感，
像一把刚开封的冰刀划过去。

亲爱又辛苦的妈咪，
无论如何，
我还是会陪着你。
应该是说我以来着有你的陪伴。
妈咪，每天晚上我陪着你，
因为我要你知道你还是有我爱着你！

还有我最可爱的小妹，
已经长大了哦！
^^

I love you mummy!

请求上天

2009-12-16T04:47:00.000-08:00

上天求求你，
如果可以，
我可以不要改变，
如果可以，我真的不介意陷入困境，
我愿意一直都被那可怕的声音困扰着，
你可以拿掉我的快乐．　
我只是希望，
一切一切都安宁，没有争吵，
不想听到吼叫，
不想看到让人心酸得落泪，
可以吗？

上天，你听到我说吗？　

改变

2009-12-16T00:02:00.000-08:00

已经很久很久没上来了，
最近妈咪也忙了起来，
当然我还是依旧的粘着妈咪。。
只是妈咪没什么时间陪我，
突然有点空虚。。。

很想念妈咪，
可是也知道不能吵妈咪。
妈咪，对不起因为我今天的任性。
我真的有努力，
虽说我知道这只是小小的改变，
我希望妈咪可以开心。
面对这个改变，我真的没什么勇气。
虽然我硬吞了，以为可以接受了，
还是最后到了厕所去了。
我会继续努力的。
妈咪，
对不起。。。

愿妈咪快快好起来。。。

2009-11-20T22:15:00.000-08:00

这两晚都没有的跟妈咪睡觉，
习惯性的嗅闻妈咪的味道，
依赖性的妈妈的拥抱，
在这两天内也无法体会到。
因为妈咪生病了。
妈咪为了不让我受到感染，
所以就不让我跟她睡。。。

可是昨晚，妈妈坐在沙发上想看电视的时候，
我又在妈咪的大腿上安眠了，
有规律的节拍，
有舒适的依靠，
还有温暖的体温，
就在短短的10 分钟内，
让我沉睡了。。
突然忘了什么事让我扎醒了。
看到疲惫的妈咪，
有点内疚。。
我到底谁了多久？
所以立刻叫妈咪去楼上好好睡。
而我就会自己的房间睡。

今晚很冷，
让我想起了“周华建” 的一首歌 -- 孤枕难眠
我体会到了。。
整个晚上都翻来覆去，
睡了一下下又醒。
再看看一些书。。。结果越看越精神。
大概因为我想不通一些问题，
哈哈，也好，至少整个夜晚还是有数学的陪伴。。
突然想到了！有点兴奋的感觉。。
好吧，开开音乐，
去睡觉吧。。。

现在想起，
有两个方法是可以让我很容易睡，
1）节奏性的拍打
2）车上的摇晃
哈哈。大概是因为从小就有这样的习惯了。
当然，也少不了我的抱抱- Isabella

亲爱的妈咪,
希望你早日康复!
我爱你.

录影

2009-11-17T15:09:00.000-08:00

昨天重温了手机里的录影和照片,
发现近两个月里并没有什么新的照片或是录影,
很久很久了...
最近我都在做什么?
好像有点点没做到什么震撼搞笑的事情..
是因为我没有笑? 还是最近我真的没做些什么?
虽说没什么事情做,
但是我还是有数学来作伴,
虽然我没有好像其他的朋友可以到处游山玩水,
可是我有妈咪的呵护和爱..
每天有习惯性的挂上字条和图片在门上,
等待妈咪的回复,
每天都有创新的一个,
然后满满的贴在墙壁上.

妈咪,
最近我真的好很多了,
谢谢你,
妈咪, 谢谢你!
还有,
妈咪, 我爱你!

对了,最近要开始录影...
因为我要有很多很多的回忆...

天啊! 有老鼠偷吃!!!

2009-11-13T05:43:00.000-08:00

我最爱的妈咪买了一个素食蛋糕,
而且,还是妈咪亲手做的!!! ( 说错了, 应该是亲手买了新鲜的草莓摆上的）

看了后, 是不是有点儿垂涎三尺,
上面写上了"我爱你, 亲爱的大家!"
当时的我，
还没吃进去，就感觉到超甜的感觉。。。。
难道这就是传说中的甜在心头的感觉？？
当然得先吃饭才能吃蛋糕啊。。。

最近facebook 有个妈咪和我最爱的玩的游戏，
就是 Spot The Difference,
找出两张图片的不同之处，
你找到了吗？
（只有瞎的才找不到。。。）

可恶~~
竟然有人偷吃了一颗草莓！！！
是我最喜欢的！！
当时有留下4 个嫌疑犯，
妹妹，Mary, Christy 和我，
因为其他人都在饭厅吃饭了。。
那个讨厌的家伙还留字条！！！

不行不行。。
要找出线索！
不能白白让其他人吃了！

这个老鼠还真笨！！
竟然留下勒重要的线索。。。
你找到了吗？

哪有老鼠偷吃了还写上真名的。。。

好啦，。。。是我吃的啦。。。。
因为。。。。
我喜欢吃草莓嘛。。。
肚子好饱哦！

妈咪，我爱你！！

Sprinkle math's feeling....

2009-11-12T16:23:00.000-08:00

Samuil Shchatunovski
It is not the job of mathematicians... to do correct arithmetical operations. It is the job of bank accountants.

I do not want to be an accountant, balancing debit and credit sides;
I do not want to digital computerized human, generating numbers and figures without meaning;
So does it mean that I want to be a mathematicians?
Not really...........
Is more than just a mathematician!!!

Why???
See this.....

An accountant, a lawyer, and an actuary are walking down the street when they come upon a man who has just accidently dropped a number of coins out of his pocket onto the sidewalk. The accountant glances around at the coins, totals their value, and advises the man on how much he lost. The lawyer ignores the coins and starts searching the sidewalk for dollar bills. And the actuary uses the total value of the lost coins to project what's left in the guy's pocket.

I want to be someone that understand the logic and meaning of the calculated numbers behinds and use those results to predict, to create and to find solutions to solve difficulties.

Michael Barton
Question: How many accountants does it take to find the present value of an annuity?

Answer: Three. One to determine the amount of each payment, one to figure out which account to put the answer in, and one to go ask an actuary how to calculate it.

But one thing have to admit is that, without mathematics skills and knowledge, there is no actuary. So do appreciate Math, and start to think what are the numbers behind means!

To me..... still HAVE to work hard... because long way to go....

本小姐的新蜘蛛椅

2009-11-12T05:19:00.000-08:00

贴在我房门外的一张字条,
准备留给我亲爱的妈咪.
打算再一下下才去洗白白的,
可是快夜了,
而且待会儿还是要粘粘妈咪,
结果去冲凉了,
却忘了换上字条.....

洗完澡后，
地上有张字条，
意外的看着，
可爱的妈咪，竟然回答说：椅子可以进吗？
是新的椅子！
谢谢妈咪，抱抱！

以前看过的一片文章，
有关到坐椅，
非人人可坐,非人人能坐,坐上去的亦非人人舒服,舒服的也非人人真如意，
只有读书之椅真真属于自己,可以倚得住、坐得牢,也是最最知心和贴心
谈及读书,最需要的还是一种心境,不以路远而踌躇,心先于步。
心平气和,不为世事所累;不急不躁,莫为凡事所扰。

谢谢妈咪赐给我的读书椅，
名为蜘蛛椅。
为什么？
看了就知道。。。

还是不懂？
那看看下一张好了，

好啦，不要乱扯了。。。去奋斗吧！

开夜车的晚上

2009-11-03T06:13:00.000-08:00

喜欢妈咪的我,
当然会珍惜跟她在一起的每一个时刻,
可是时间一点一滴的过了,
当然我不会后悔,
只要因为长长的夜晚还是会陪伴着我.
突然觉得宁静了下来,
因为没有妈咪的陪伴.
还有6天,我有得面对我不想面对的...
虽说这次不成功,我会下次更努力,
可是我相信我还是会哭着回来的....

时间就这样过了,
没有关系,
9 号后,我还是会继续读,
比上次还要更充分的准备,
我一定会回来,
但是在同一时间,
我不想放弃你...

妈咪,
我最近有吃多多哦,
因为我爱妈咪...
妈咪, 对不起,
这次又要面对失败了...
大概我又会大哭了...
妈咪对陪伴着我的,
对吗?

约定了星期五的约会,
因为我喜欢抱着妈咪睡觉,
很有安全感...
妈咪, 晚安!

神迹只限一次

2009-11-02T00:48:00.000-08:00

成绩出炉了,
当然,如我所想,
当然是没有被录取...
毕竟上次的表现是在.... 勘不回首....
妈咪, 虽然我知道你不喜欢听到我说对不起,
可是, 说真的我真的很对不起你...
因为... 我没有这么的本事...

上次得到已经是一次的奇迹,
当然,有一次老天爷眷顾, 我已经很开心了..
还是谢谢小月,紫儿, 紫冰, 紫坠, 和小粉的陪伴...
谢谢你们...

今天.. 又是下雨的一天...
老天爷是怜悯我吗?

翻版Donald Trump

2009-10-28T05:55:00.000-07:00

电视上的 Donald Trump 看得多了，
这次还真的来一次翻版的。。

搭上车的那一刹那，
我就知道今天就会失败，
面试对我来说是天敌，
更何况今天真的是由此以来第一次要面对陌生人.

一大早, 红肿的眼睛已经是不好的预兆,
6点多久开车了,
在车上一直都在想,
时间应该是很快过的吧,
转眼间,在那个时候坐在车上的是天还没亮的时候,
瞬间我突然幻想那时候的我是傍晚, 望着窗外, 低沉着...
手里握紧着小月,
祈祷着... 小月, 我们会一起努力的, 对吗?

第二个不好的先兆,
虽然早到,
却在错的地方等待,
8点了,
怎么一个人也没有...
应该是命中注定,
这个面试是不属于我的....

兜兜转转,
上天还是爱我的,
因为派了天使的妈咪,
一直紧握着我的手,
陪我去找对了地方,
到达了.....
妈咪, 谢谢你,
因为有你,我知道我是幸福的.....

高高的大厦,
好冷的吹风机,
明明穿了厚厚的棉衣,
怎么还是那么冷....
吃了药,
有点昏昏沉沉....
跟一堆女生一起坐,
感觉到她们可是上流一组,
有点儿格格不入,
是因为她们所说的, 都很政治,都很复杂,
我还是拿起迷失之书看看....
有点期待再看到上次和我一起在第一关的作答的女生,
结果没出现...

8.30 准,
开始了,
跟着身上卡片的颜色分组,
我是粉红色!
我最爱的颜色.... 是好的开始?
5 个人1 组,
完全都是生面孔,
4:1 的女男比例,
4:1 的上班族和刚毕业组的比例,
好陌生,好寂寞...

题目出来了,
需要在外头找资料,
去询问有关经济的问题有关,
问问他们的意见,若说有个经济讲座会在这个时候举办,
被询问的对象是否愿意掏出腰包去聆听?
限时1 个小时,
准备1 张文答卷,
跟陌生人作答,
回来作分析.
好,限时开始!

匆匆忙忙,
组员们都很积极的去找相关的人,
只有我,
面对陌生人,
走过去都成问题,
当然, 过程中,
很严重的失败...
面对人,
面对陌生人,
面对需要说话, 又不认识的人
我..... 失败了...

回到来,
检考官要审问我们,
其他4 各成员都口沫横飞的说,
只有我....
被忽略了...
若不是检考官指名道姓的叫我回答问题,
整个过程, 我只不过是陪衬....
手皮的磨出来了....
我是紧张吗?

思考和过滤资料的时候,
这个可是我最享受的过程,
因为只有在这个时候,
再也没有什么争论性,
说真的在数学上的讨论,我还是很陶醉的,
可惜, 她们的背景都跟数学无关,
更何况思考和过滤这个环节并没有分数,
所以他们也没有放什么心思在里面.
亲爱的数学不怕,
就算他们放弃了你,
我不会,
因为你是我的好朋友,
我不会把你仍在一旁的....
我们一起努力吧....

工欲善其事,必先利其器,
我怎么可能把你忘了呢? 我的好朋友2 。。。。
计算机。。。。
一直按按按。。。。
完成了。。。。
还有一个小时，开始分析所要说的，
也开始要写需要指出的要点，
好让其他的朋友待会儿有些东西说。。。。
她们一看到公式，就开始摇头了。。。
对哦，我忘了。。。她们都是律师，药剂的。。。

公开说了，
反正没有分数环节，
所以没有什么人都用心在presentation，
当我们present 完了，
检考官说, 这个是没有分数的环节，
为什么还是要怎么的仔细？
她们看着我。。。
我回答，因为这是我的本份。。

最后环节，
检考官又再请我们进去，
一踏进，她们用了很严肃的面容面对我们，
情形跟之前的完全不一样，
很紧绷。。。。很严肃。。。
一位比较凶的检考官，问了：
你知道这么多组里，你们的表现是最差的。
从一开始，你们的组的表现实在是让人彻底的失望，
现在我要审问，到底谁在这个组合里，谁是害群之马。。
又开始舌战了。。。
直到他们问我，到底是谁？
她的眼睛，真的好像发火了，
我。。突然害怕了。。。
我说：
对不起，是我。。。
她问我为什么？
我。。。真的不知道怎么回答。。。

后来才知道，
原来其他的组合，都是这样问的。。。
害我真的觉得很内疚。。。

一天就这样过完了，
临走前，
检考官留了我一下，
她跟我说，
小妹妹，你有这思考的能力，
可是你的善良天真是你的致命伤，
更何况你是念精算学的，
社会和学校是完全不一样的，
我喜欢你的思考，
也喜欢你的天真，
可是在社会，你不会是一个领袖。
虽然这次表现不卓，
我看到了你的潜能。。

听了，
我知道我是失败了，
其实我并没什么思考，
刚好我今天所做的并不是什么真正的思考，
而是刚好背景不一样，
读书的背景不一样，
我幸运的沾到一些光，
若说我面对的是我的师傅kit keong，
还是我班上其他更厉害的同学，
我完全是小巫见大巫。。
并没有什么特出的。。。

爸妈，对不起，
我又失败了。。。
浪费了你们的时间，
也可能要你们破费。。。
对不起。。。
我没有弟弟妹妹的天资，
也没有他们的勇敢，
少了他们的一股积极，
可是。。我还是会努力的。。。

妈咪，你应该睡了吧。。
好好的睡哦，
你今天真的会很累了，
因为你为了我奔波了很多，
谢谢你，
我爱你。。。

眼针

2009-10-27T05:07:00.000-07:00

眼睛真的很痒很痛....
亲爱的妈咪,对不起
你才刚回来,
原本要吃晚饭的,
可是因为我又得跑出去替我买药,
对不起...
已经很夜了,
你都还没吃晚饭,
身为你的女儿,我真的很没用...
让你辛苦了.
对不起, 也最爱我最亲爱的妈咪...

好痒哦..
都三天了,
还没消,
还越变越大,
是发热气吗?

心脏有点扑通扑通的,
还有10 小时就要面对了,
很害怕..
妈咪, 明天不能送简讯给你,
一定会很想念妈咪的...
妈咪明天也要吃多多哦...
抱抱...

One more day left

2009-10-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

Another one more day,
I have to report myself there at 8.00am sharp.
Nervous and scare.
I know that that day I have to face a lot of new faces,
At the current situation,
I know I am not prepared.
In fact, I do not know what to prepare.
What are the topics?
Am I able to speak in front?
Am i able to understand what they want?
Staying there almost the whole day.
I really have no idea what will happen.

But I will bring you all along,
I know that that day you all will support me, no matter what I will met.
Thank you for accompanying me,
especially dear little purple,
Since uni, the first day I met you in mama's tuition centre,
you had been supporting with me, passing through all difficulties.
Recently added new friends, little moon, icy purple, and so on...
Let's gather together,
fight for it...

But.....
I still scare...

母爱的伟大。。。

2009-10-22T16:34:00.000-07:00

好久好久没有放上video给人update一下，
最近最近都有很多很多的事情发生，
当然在此都不方便的说，
因为。。。我会害羞啦。。。哈哈

昨天晚上，
发现Auntie Mary（管家）在收拾很多很多零零碎碎的东西，
我进房一看，都是买给她女儿的东西，
很多很多。。。真的很多。
衣服，零食，书包，首饰，玩具，书本，雨衣，文具。。。
很多很多，真的很多。
原来是Auntie Mary 女儿-- GemGem （宝石的意思）生日，
宝石。。。生日快乐。。

生日礼物。。。。真的很多很多

Auntie Mary ，宝石的妈妈

就算母亲是位家庭主妇，是位职业女强人，是位卑微的佣人，是位在街头乞吃得也好，
天下的母亲都是一样，
她们都有着爱着她们孩子的心，
当小宝宝在妈咪肚子里期，
最期待宝宝来到世界来的就是最可人的妈咪们，
每天都摸着像西瓜那么大粒的肚子，安慰着宝宝，和宝宝沟通沟通。。。
在我12岁时候，我记得妈咪也是有大大粒的肚子，
有着我的妹妹的时候，妈咪每次都叫我准备小桶给她吐口水，
那时候，我和二妹都在妈咪的房间里，和妈咪一起看电视。
妈咪懒洋洋的睡在床上，
就叫：“颖徽，颖徽，桶拿来！"
这一幕，我记得特别清楚，不知道为什么。。。
我很喜欢摸妈咪的大肚子，因为我知道我会有多一个小宝宝玩。
我一直以来都很喜欢小宝宝，
无论是谁的宝宝也好，
都会很想很想跟他们玩。
1998年，小妹妹-- 颖昕（好像迎新同音）出生了。。
我在医院看到妈咪，还有睡在宝宝床的妹妹。
还有照片贴在她的床头。。。很可爱！！
妈咪好像很累很累。。因为妹妹不乖，在妈咪的肚子里翻筋斗，
害妈咪要被医生用刀割，才能拿出来。。
可是，看在妹妹这么可爱的份上，我还是原谅你。
那时候的我，还不是和妈咪有很浓郁的感觉。。。
可是心里，我还是很爱妈咪的。。。

长大了，
身边发生发生了很多很多的时间，
人家说时间长了，人与人的关系就会越来越来疏远，
尤其是和父母的联系就越拉越远，
看着远方的弟弟妹妹就知道了，
可是我和妈咪的联系也跨出了一大步，
虽然有很多不堪设想的回忆，
但是也因为这些事情琢磨了我们感情，
妈咪，对不起。。。最近我让你操心了，
也让你带来了很多很多的麻烦。。
真的很多。。
我喜欢妈咪的拥抱，
我喜欢妈咪身上的味道，
我很喜欢喜欢的妈咪。
妈咪，
我真的很喜欢你，
我不知道为什么又落泪了，
可是这次我并没有因为胡思乱想而落泪，
而是因为我想起跟你的点点滴滴落泪，
我落泪不是因为我伤心，
我落泪不是因为我胡思乱想，
我落泪不是因为有人骂我，
我落泪是因为上天对我这么好，
送了我这么好的妈咪给我，
妈咪，
除了对不起，
我还想跟你说，
妈咪，我爱你！

无论将来什么都好，
无论将来会发生什么事，
我都会要妈咪的陪伴，
一直一直粘贴着妈咪，
就算医生说这是不成熟，
会给人笑也好，
我不理会，
因为，我最喜欢妈咪。。。
而这些拥抱亲吻的举动都是我内心的表达，
睡在妈咪的大腿上，从中我得到了温暖，
我会记得那天，妈咪拍拍我睡觉。。
无论几岁都好，
我都要跟妈咪在一起。。。

远方的你们，
有多久没有拥抱你的妈咪？
有多久没有和她聊天了？
有多久没有跟她说笑话了？
又有多久你没有亲吻她了？

我是幸福的，因为我都在家里，我都会利用短暂的时间
去完成我想完成的事情，
因为我不想将来失去了机会才来后悔。

现在都不迟，弟弟妹妹。。快打电话给妈咪，好吗？

想不通...

2009-10-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

还是不够聪明,
还是不够努力?
结果还是不明白....
这题.... 超过了36 个小时了。。。
还是逗留着。。。

我知道我还是要继续，
放弃并不是我要的，
有人跟我说， “算啦，skip掉它就好了！ ”
不可以，
做习题是因为可以从错误中学习，
不管这题就等于有多了一个不知道。。。
放弃。。。我应该吗？
不要。。。
我不想放弃。。。
不是不想，
而是我不会放弃。。。

小可爱... 能熟睡, 真好...

2009-10-18T00:19:00.000-07:00

当你第一眼看到这么熟睡的宝宝的时候，
你有什么感觉？

好想捏捏他的小脸，
亲亲他的脸峡，
好可爱哦！
这么可以有这么可爱的宝宝的呢？

睡到好熟哦，
我们还是不要吵醒他哦。。。

shh......

妈咪，
我在你的心目中，
也是小宝宝吗？
可是，你在我的心目中，
是我最爱的妈咪！！！

有一阵子没有上来了...

2009-10-16T16:33:00.000-07:00

好久没上来这里,
最近都没有什么特别的事情,
也开始了跟妈咪在别的地方联络,
也没有在学校与同学嘻嘻哈哈.
每天有的是数学和妈咪,

妈咪, 谢谢你..
最近的开导,最近的劝导,
最近的关怀,
最近的拥抱,
最近的亲吻,
我都很喜欢喜欢.
因为有了你,
我开始笑了,
每次不在你的身旁,
我都很想念很想念你,
每次吃到你为我准备的爱心食物,
就算没有胃口,
我都很喜欢吃...
不单单只是因为你煮得好吃,
而是因为里面多了一股温暖,
不是因为食物的温度,
而是因为食物里有你的味道,有你对我爱的气味.
每天晚上得麻烦到你,特地陪我,
亲爱的妈咪, 对不起,
因为是我让你操心了.
最近颖徽有乖哦,
颖徽有走跑步机,
因为我知道妈咪希望我有做运动,
我也要妈咪吃的胖胖,
我也要妈咪每天都开心,
妈咪, 虽然弟弟妹妹很少跟你聊天,
可是相信我,
我每天都会陪你,
我每天都会想你,
弟弟妹妹因为有太多活动,
他们不是不理会你,
虽然我没有弟弟妹妹这样出息,
没有什么卓越的主席,还是什么什么很高职位的,
可是我有的是对妈咪的爱,
这种爱的程度我也不知道有多深,
因为我在最痛苦的时候,
你的爱牵动了我.
我要陪在妈咪的身边,
因为我真的很爱很爱妈咪.

数学,
谢谢你,
是你带走了我的烦恼,
用尽我全部的力气,
让我从你的身上找到的避风港,
减少了那些不知哪来的不安,
减少了那些从来没有的感觉,
你是我的药吗?

夜晚,
谢谢你,
谢谢对我每天的提醒,
谢谢你让我如何走下去,
这样我就可以走出明天,
只要那个明天是每个身边的人都开心的,
我真的会很开心很开心的.

月儿,紫儿和黑伊,
谢谢你们每天晚上陪我祈祷,
每天晚上有了你们,
我觉得明天所有的愿望都会实现,
每个能感受到我的愿望,
也因为这些,他们开心了.
大家都努力,
大家一起奋斗,
大家一起加油!

欣欣,
谢谢你,
最近的你真的很忙很忙,
我们俩在一起的时间也开始减少,
也知道你最近为了一些事情而困扰,
不怕哦,
因为无论什么事情,
无论什么时候,
你都可以找我,
在困难的事情,
我都会义不容辞的帮你,
就算用尽我的一切,
我都会帮你的.

还有特别的人,
对不起,
每次给你带来很多很多的麻烦.
有很多很多的需要跟你说,
应该是没有什么机会说,
也不知道怎么说.
不怕哦,
妈咪有在我的身旁陪伴着我,
也不用担心我哦.
谢谢你.

妈咪,生日快乐!

2009-10-11T15:43:00.000-07:00

亲爱的妈咪,
生日快乐....
昨晚都在忙着准备面试的事情,
搞到心情烦躁,
我知道对这个奖学金来说,
是一百个不可能,
因为入选者有5000 多人,
可是被选到却只有10人,
我又何得何能鹤立鸡群?
心脏不停不停的怦怦跳跳,
就连现在打字的手都在发抖.
是紧张吗? 我不知道....
只知道心情很乱....
就连今天早上都需要让你提醒我, 祝福你生日快乐...
我知道对我来说, 不太可能...
因为我很重视妈咪的生日,
我真的很在乎妈咪...
虽然说,我知道你的生日对你说是不重要,
可是对我来说是很重要的.
如果妈咪不存在的话,
上天就没有赐我这么大的礼物, 这么好的妈咪给我....
有了妈咪,我有了安全感,
有了妈咪,我爱笑了,
有了妈咪,我爱撒娇,
有了妈咪,我学会了坚强,
有了妈咪, 我知道什么是爱,
有了妈咪,我知道我幸福了....

妈咪, 我不是你最幸福的因素,
可是, 你是我一生中最重要,是幸福的爱心强心针....
妈咪, 祝你生日快乐.....
我爱你!

致亲爱的妈咪 2

2009-10-07T08:09:00.000-07:00

当妈咪开到这个部落格的时候，
我有一个小秘密告诉你，
请你到另外一个部落格，
网址是：http://www.wretch.cc/blog/yinghuiyeo
至于密码，我已经告诉妈咪了。。。
成功的打开了，
我下面有More 的字眼，
请在那儿用右健的滑鼠按一次，
你就可以看完完整的文章了。

晚安我最爱的妈咪，
还有可爱的妹妹，昕，祝你快点康复！
虽然有小朋友不爽你，
可是我们一家人都爱你！
开心点哦！ ^ ^

给最爱的妈咪

2009-10-06T07:30:00.000-07:00

谢谢妈咪在我的部落格内留言，
看了很感动，
又有流眼泪得冲动，
今天，我真的事了很多很多次，
可是，身体还时不争气，
真的很努力的试，
可是越吃越多，就越会呕吐，
所以，我能尽量的是喝你给我的奶粉，
体重真的开始有加了。

妈咪，对不起，
因为我，又让你开始了胃痛，
妈咪，也要好好的吃，
要不然，我也是会心痛的。
我曾想上天祈求，
如果可以的话，我真的希望你能完全甩掉胃痛的毛病。
如果可以，我希望胃痛的是我，
如果可以，我希望你能好好的，开开心心的活下去，
果然在前几个月里，我真的看到妈咪病好了，
上天真的又听到我的恳求，
上天是爱我的，
妈咪，每天笑好吗？
不用为我操心，
因为你是我最爱的妈咪。

药的效力快到了，
哈哈。。。。我竟然吃错了药。
妈咪，我爱你，
永远永远的爱着你。
我要照顾妈咪到老，
可以吗？

中秋节快乐

2009-10-03T07:36:00.000-07:00

愿天下全部人,
认识也好,
不认识也好,
动物也好,
植物也好,
杂草都好,
中秋节快乐.....

今天, 你快乐吗?

谢谢妈咪!

2009-10-01T06:46:00.000-07:00

因为某些原因,
所以有点食欲不振,
也开始没有胃口,
可是妈咪为了我真的真的憔悴了,
妈咪对不起,
真的对不起.
我要你每天开心好吗?

妈咪为了我, 买了很多很多我喜欢的食物,( 可是我很没用, 我还是对事物抗拒)
马迷为了我, 还煮了我很多很多我喜欢吃的食物
妈咪为了我, 带我去看医生, 抽血( 这个事我其中最怕的事项)
妈咪为了我, 带我到神庙拜拜,
妈咪为了我, 买了很多很漂亮很漂亮的水晶 ( 让我心定安稳)
妈咪为了我, 每天都给我爱的拥抱, 说了很多故事给我听,
妈咪为了我, 每天晚上都会陪我, 安抚我吞下难吃的药,
妈咪为了我, 都会送我简讯, 关心我,
妈咪为了我, 在我紧张的时候, 摸摸我的手, 让我平静,
妈咪为了我, 每天早上会提醒我吃东西, 给我很大力的拥抱, 才去上班,
妈咪为了我, 又开始没有了食欲.

妈咪你为了我真的很多, 我真的很爱你,
亲吻和拥抱妈咪都是我心里最真诚的,
妈咪我真的很爱很爱你,
因为有你, 我开心了,
因为有你, 我笑了,
因为有你, 我知道我会很需要你,
因为有你, 我会不舍得出国

那我到底为你做过些什么呢?
除了帮你教书,
我真的没有什么帮得上忙的. 对不起...
我要可以帮得上妈咪,
我要妈咪快乐,
我要妈咪每天笑,
我要妈咪每天都很开心,
我要永远爱妈咪.

妈咪, 我真的真的很爱很爱你....
可以让我剩下的日子, 永远永远孝顺你?

发脾气的欣欣。。。还是那么可爱！

2009-09-14T04:44:00.000-07:00

可爱的朋友,
不要生气哦,
开心点啊.
虽然不知道你在生气些什么,
是因为我吗?
对不起, 不要不理我嘛.
要不然, 我就要出招了...

出什么招?还会有什么呢?

我还是比较喜欢看到你笑的样子...

记得上次我们一起去看花吗?
刚才重温手机内的相片,
我还是喜欢莲花和百合...
那你喜欢什么花呢? 有机会我种你一棵好吗?
因为为了买一束花，而抹煞了她们的生命，好可惜哦。。。
花儿，我会像野草一样的活下去，
除了不怕被人欺压，还有要衬托我身边的花儿展现最快乐的一面！
信，你也是其中的一朵小花哦！加油啊

Yan singing songs... Korean song

2009-08-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

Before uploading the video, I want to show something to Teacher looi's wife just to make her happy... Teacher looi very nice one... didnt bully us... He most sayang you one... This one I can guarantee, definitely! Don't cry k ?

Sorry with kido play, this is what I can play only... Can smile for me please? ^^

Try to play some songs to make people around me to be happy

2009-08-21T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today is Friday, no tutorials, no lecture classes.

Just for appreciation, I want to present this song to someone. Don't sad anymore.. Just be happy, and must be from the inner heart one, but not from the physically smile o . Hehe... I know you know who am I referring to. Cheer up ya!

Besides to my dear mama, thanks for letting me to learn piano... I appreciate that all the while you loving me so much, letting me to learn so many things... But .... till now, I can't draw well... Hehe.. So pai sei...

Thank you Wang Wang for accompanying me ya ! ^o.^ Hey this emoticon really look likes you. Hehe. How should I put the specs leh?

Thank you teacher looi for playing us guitar, hehe... As repayment, only let you listen to this song. Sorry, I don't play as well as you , and I cannot bring along my piano everywhere. ^^

Ok.. Just a short one... ^o^

This song is from 200 pound of beauty. She has great determination, very strong inner desire and determination. By now, I know I should build up more my inner strong, because I want people around to be happy as well. Go on everyone!

Life Con II test 1

2009-08-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

Just in case some of the friends didnt receive the files on the reference for Life Con II. I am hereby uploaded some suggested answers. Hope this help. If you want to download, just click on the images and appear the larger view. Have a nice day ya ^o^

There are 6 pages in total.
Have a nice day ya ^0^

妈咪, 辛苦了

2009-08-15T17:11:00.000-07:00

一直以来都喜欢黏妈咪,
虽然我们的相对的时间不长，
所以一旦有机会就会黏着她。
其中和她在一起的时间是洗菜切菜的时间，
因为对着她又说不完的秘密,
还有说不完的傻话.
嘻嘻,对不起啦妈咪,因为我是xia za po 第一！

跟你们说哦，
妈咪煮的菜可是天下第一名的，
因为妈咪调味才艺是一级帮，
尤其是妈咪褒的爱心汤，
什么汤都最喜欢！
除了有蛋的汤，不是因为不喜欢，
因为我不能喝嘛。
可是最爱我的妈咪对会迁就我
妈咪~~ 对不起，每次因为我都一起不能吃。
更不用说，尤其是出去吃大餐的时候，更添麻烦了。

让你看看最贤妻良母的模样。。。
妈妈煮的每到菜都是秀色可餐的哦

辛苦你了妈咪，这么热的天气还要在外烧菜！从屋里拍还像不太清楚，
没办法，我怕被妈咪发现了。

第一道菜出炉了。菜心！我的最爱。
还是在外面草场拍比较清楚，
可是。。。。。
看不到妈咪漂亮的脸庞。

Aunty Eunice, 虽说没化妆的女人不美，
我说最会烧菜，和最疼自己的孩子的女人最棒！
好啦，我也知道Aunty Eunice 很吸引人啦，
因为你有很棒的身材嘛。。。
可是至于烧菜嘛，无可奉告，
因为我没吃过嘛。。。

不要说：“ 咳哟，傻咋婆。。。 ”
嘻嘻， Aunty Eunice 在大笑了吧！
果然是傻咋婆第二名！哇哈哈哈！！！

经典! 要看哦! 很好的教材!

2009-08-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

起立，行礼，谢谢ong 老师让我们上了这么棒的课程，
很好吧？
好有趣的课程，
让我学习如何当个好老师，
吸引同学对我的教书方法。
同学们，对不起，
我知道我教得有点闷，可是
我会尽力的！
会从ong老师那儿学习的！
谢谢

对不起，我很尽力的upload 上去，
可是不知道为什么还是有那些字。
对不起！

生日快乐,亲爱的妹妹- 昕

2009-08-12T04:35:00.000-07:00

8月12日,
亲爱的妹妹,
11 岁了哦,
虽然今天不能出去吃饭,
可是,希望你喜欢我送给你的小荷包.
祝你身体健康,
学业进步,
青春美丽,
....
还有什么?
咳哟,客气的话就免了,
只想跟你说,
生日快乐!
姐姐永远爱你!!

还有送你一首歌!

要post 上去的同时，
妈妈叫我吃斋蛋糕，
没办法因为我对蛋敏感，
所以最疼我的妈妈时时都为我着想，
特地为我订了我可食用的蛋糕，
娘，我爱你

猫猫蛋糕,可爱吧!
上面还写上:
Happy Birthday to Yan Yan
Happy Graduation to Jie Jie
原来我也是其中一个配角呢。^^

11 岁了，怎么会只有1 只蜡烛呢？

妹妹和猫猫小姐合照

妹妹在炫耀她收到的礼物！大的是妈咪买的，小的是本小姐买的。妹妹，生日快乐

感恩之心

2009-08-10T05:03:00.000-07:00

熊熊画纸，小小的祝贺卡，好可爱哦！

其实老师的字可爱！　老师谢谢你！　又让你破费了。真的抱歉！

萧邦！！！！　最爱的！　

谢谢ong 老师的毕业礼物，
超喜欢的！　
听着萧邦的情绪波动的音乐，
让我想起他一直以来都是那么期待爱情雨露的滋润．
两次爱情的失败，却被桑夫人的默默支持下全线瓦解。
因为认识了她，让他觉得最幸福安稳的时期，
智慧和力量也在这个时候达到最高峰，
在这个时候，写了最成功的作品。

好可惜，病魔的阴影时时缠着他，
让他比不得以跟他最爱的人分手，
９年的感情就这样告吹。
从此也再也写不出美丽的乐儿。

在他的生命最后的时刻，
他说了，
" 我还是想见到她 "

因为爱情，让他创上了高峰，
也因为爱情，　吹毁了他．
那，爱情到底是什么？

今天隐隐约约知道一个同学不开心，
虽不知识什么原因，
也知道她不会看中文，
可是，我还是想对她说，
开心点！因为，你还是活着的，
让你的生命力，去感染其他人，　帮助其他人，　
因为这样世界才会有更多开心的人．
努力哦同学！

还有，谢谢ong 老师！　

毕业，比赛！

2009-08-09T02:03:00.000-07:00

终于毕业了!
应该有什么心情？
说真的，当天早上是有点不好意思。
怎么说？？
因为我最怕拍照。
人长得不漂亮算了，
又不上镜，
又不聪明。
可是，没有办法，
还是要去的啊。
相反的，我可爱的娘比我还要兴奋！

一大早就起身了，
穿上白色的长袖衣，
披上弟弟黑色外套，
拿着一大袋的毕业礼服，
在客厅等着最爱我的家人。
爸爸妈妈都很重视我的毕业典礼，
说真的，我真的很感动！
因为有了他们，我知道我是存在的！

出发了，
到了那儿，好多好多人。
其实我都算很早到，
没想到真的好多人！

走进登记房，
看到了1 个月没见到的朋友们，
好想念他们哦！
来个大的拥抱!
欣怎么还不来啊。。。。
大概有迟到了。。
明明一早就给她简讯了，
怕她醒不来。。
等了好久好久哦。。。。

终于来了。。
等到她来了，
好吧，可以一起换上毕业袍了。
好重哦。。。好像背上了几斤重的物体在身上，
啊！！他们念号码了，
可是四方帽还没带上，
得快点了，要排队了。
在等其他的人排队的同时，
我跟欣也互相帮对方调整帽子。

现在我们在视听房外面等待，
等待的过程，朋友们就拿出相机照，照，照！
有同学邀请，
好害羞哦。。。
算了吧，就衬托他们漂亮好了！

欣欣和佩佩在她们中学时就相识了，一直到今天为止，难得吧！

佩佩和我都是出名的小眼一族！

至于我和欣欣都是有同样的笑容！

佩佩和欣欣都是我在大学认识到的好朋友! 我们之间的联系是很难以想象的哦! 因为一次英文的报告让我们相遇了。

至于我和kk都是中六以来的好朋友。他教会我很多很多的事情，功课上也好，性格上也好，都是我很好的朋友。虽说男女不能做好朋友，我跟他都有5 年的好朋友了！

好啦，不要拍照了啦。。进去吧！

进场了，
天啊，好多好多的眼睛，
好怕哦。。
dad，妈咪和妹妹呢？
天啊，我整场都在看地上，怎么会找到他们呢？
入席了。。

听了好久好久，
最后颁奖仪式到了，
上台时，
也是都在看地上，
好多眼睛哦！
真的很怕，手脚都冷冰冰了。
到我了，
快速飞过去，
抢到了，
好了。。又冲下去。。。
好了。。完毕！
好怕好怕。。。

完了，都完了。
全部离场了。
同学都留下来拍照了。。。
趁机溜啊！还留下来干嘛呢？
虽然说这是纪念，
可是。。当我对这镜头的时候，
真的。。。很不自在。

拿了自己的东西，
就赶着找爸爸妈妈了！
和欣欣走的过程中遇到了他们的父母，
他们长的很年轻哦！
都没什么机会很他们说话，
因为怕爸爸妈妈等太久了。

他们都在门口等我。
真得很对不起，让你们久等了。
漂亮的妈咪买了一束葵！好漂亮
那束刚好是前3天我和欣说的，
那束向日葵好漂亮哦！
果然，妈咪还是最爱我的！
还有一只可爱的pooh 熊！

妈妈和爸爸一直都吵我要拍照。。
天啊。。
爸爸说。。不要笑到眼睛都看不到啦。。
咳哟。。我不想的嘛。
在一旁看着我的妈妈和妹妹都笑不合口了。
当然，还是要跟爸爸妈妈拍一张吧！

妈咪和妹妹在视听室拍的.

轮到爸爸和妹妹拍了。我跟爸爸长的很像吧！

我最爱的爸爸妈妈！
只是这次弟弟妹妹都在新加坡忙着，没得出席。。
没关系，明年我会在新加坡参加妹妹的毕业典礼。芊，加油哦！

由于要赶着去陪妹妹比赛，
所以没跟朋友聊天，
好可惜哦。。
可是去比赛前，得去庙庙拜拜，
谢谢文昌爷爷一直以来的保佑，
我已经毕业了！
我会为前面的路更加的奋斗！

好了，
到妹妹的比赛场地了，
好热闹哦！
看到一对小朋友头上都插朵黄花，
让我想起。。。
路边的野花，你不要采。。。

这个不是我妹妹的组合。是她的竞争对手！

为目标而努力！去年妹妹得到冠军，今年又会不会夺冠呢? RM1500 不错不错，满吸引的！

可怜的宝宝，应该是累了吧！竟然睡在桌子上！

好了，比赛开始了。。。
看看其他的组合吧！

听到他们唱到好悲哀哦。。而且站的好靠近哦！
手好酸哦。。所以没录完

好奇怪的组合，没有音乐的。可是他们的声音很宏亮哦！声音比我的还要大声！

终于轮到我妹妹的组了！红红的！可爱吧！妹妹是当指挥的，厉害吧！
很好听吧? 我看如果其他竞争对手看到了，我要被揍了！！

还有一组很不错的组合。很好听。尤其是有一个solo 的印度小妹，很好听的声音哦。还会抖音哦。。不错不错！

肚子好饿哦。。结果剩下那几组合都没录了。好饿好饿哦· 面包。。。最爱的面包我来了！结果去买rotiboy 吃了。妹妹就吃汉堡包！

报告成绩了。。来来，一起看吧！

赢了！这次又拿冠军了。妹妹真厉害！好棒哦妹妹！让我感到骄傲！

妹妹和她的最好朋友。

妹妹和妈咪的合照

还有我和妹妹的。
当然也少不了。。。

我们三人合照阿。。妹妹妈妈，我爱你们！

在离开前，主席要求encore 。所以要在表演一次哦。。可是这次只录妹妹个人指挥，让你看看我妹妹的真本事！她很enjoy 哦！

好累人哦。。还是回家了。。今天都没忙完勒。。

专题?

2009-08-06T04:23:00.000-07:00

好一阵子没上来了,
最近都在干嘛?
应该是... 很忙吧!
忙什么?
我快毕业了....
有点紧张又兴奋,
但也在同时也会悲伤吧!~

最近都没看到欣,
她应该不是忘了我吧...
好伤感哦...
不是啦.... 人家也在忙嘛...
至于亲爱的ong 老师,
应该现在过这我上个礼拜的痛苦吧...
就是...............

改考卷咯...

亲爱的老师,
不要太难过啦,
欣欣不update blog.....
那我就现在暂时代替她。。。
帮帮你。。。解闷。。
但是有一个请求哦。。。
就是。。
就是。。。
就是。。。。
就是。。。。。

不要来看我上课啦。。。
这样，我会哭的！

礼拜六，就要去毕业典礼了，
大家都过的很好吧！
当然，我也过的很好。
也很开心的认识了两个好老师。
还有谁？
就是looi 老师和　ong 老师阿！　
他们什么都好，
就是有一点不好．．．

就是不让我和欣欣付钱．
老师啊，这样我们都不敢和你吃饭了，
每次都要你破费！
下次要让我们请你们哦！

对了，还有一张可爱的照片要上传了，
是超级大美女哦．．

不用犹豫了啦．．．
我的眼光很棒的！
想知道？？
拉下去看看就知道了阿！

就是我最漂亮的娘！　我最爱最爱的妈咪！

妈咪，　你是最棒的！！

还有，妈～～四方帽要还给学校的啦．．．．　

Hey teacher ong, why are you hanging up there?

2009-08-02T07:36:00.001-07:00

Hey, teacher ong, why are you hanging up there?

Can't get me? Hmm... look at the kite's picture..

^o^

Thank you panda for the picture!!

今天好像没做到什么。。。

2009-07-31T06:35:00.000-07:00

今天到底做些什么呢？
不太想得起，
人有点累累的，
大概是药效还没过。
在昨天的10点晚上正，
终于改完了。
同学的进步让我喜悦，
但同学的退步也让我悲伤。
可是我相信考试并不代表一切，
虽然说真的有些人真的很聪明才考到很优越的成绩，
但是我更加相信努力得来的成果才最可贵。

可是有时候我觉得考试这个制度并不是很好的测量器，
如果说有位同学在考试博得高分，
有三个可能性，
(1)
他太幸运了，上天对他的疼惜，让他刚好背到这个。
但这也只不过证明他有超凡的预制能力和超好的记忆力。
(2)
因为他的勤劳，不停又不停得重复做习题，
所以一旦看到了类式的题目，就自动的会做，
但也在同时把他塑造好象固定的方程式，失去了创意，也失去了真正思考的训练。
(3)
这个是我最欣赏的，
把读书当作乐趣，把问题在成为另一个问题。
我喜欢把问题把它变成更大的问题。最喜欢的莫过于是说为什么？
如果这样。。。那又为什么？。。又再为什么？

方法1在小学的使用，发现他的危险性。
在中学开始使用方法2。是有它一定的效力，
可是一直解决习题，而不去思考，
无意中失去了读书的意义，
因为只是为了牢记方程式。

大学在努力学用方法2 和3，
觉得学习的乐趣，
学校的习题固然要做，
可是也在问题上开始加上不同的问题，
让问题变得真的很有问题，
而不是单单的为了解决而去解决。
如果只是为解决，单靠电脑科技的技术就可达成。
我们要学的不是过去是人家已经创造的原理，
而是从这些原理把它变成更实在，更好的妙理。
但这两个方法得用很长很长的时间，
只是应付学校写不完的功课和assignments都吃了很多时间。
还要不断的重听全部录下上课的内容，
24 小时真的不够用。
没办法，那就得
减少出街的时间，
减少看戏的时间，
减少睡眠的时间，
这样方法3 就可以用了！
可是不能减少停留在部落个的时间，
因为她是我在任何心情的状况的精神支柱，
可是我还是会尽量缩短面对她的时间。

当然，我也是希望能考到好成绩，所以也得不断的做习题。因为我有一个缺点。
老是既不起来那些最终的方程式，
在考试都是当场从最基本的开始derive，
最后。。。又是做不完考试了。
所以我还是得同时兼用方法2，好让我这个记忆力超差把方程式硬塞进头脑。

我现在还不断的努力，要让头脑想的不只是单单在书上所看的问题，
而是要看一幅很大很大的图画，
让我彻底的探讨这个无底洞。
我要创新，我要创造，我要努力！

虽说考试并不是很好的制度，
但是还是要尽力的考，
因为现在的世界还是很现实的，
考得好与坏就决定了你的价值。

但是至于这次考得不是很好的学生，
不要气馁，或是放弃，
因为我会跟你们一起努力，
只要你们愿意跟我一起奋斗！

加油吧！

快完成了。。

2009-07-30T03:23:00.000-07:00

谢谢looi 老师和ong 老师，
谢什么？因为你们这几天的支持，
我已经好很多很多了。
当然少不了我的最好的知己-- 欣。

今天又让ong 老师破费了，
亲爱的老师啊，要是你再请我们，
那我就不要去了啦。。。
这样我们都会很不好意思的。
下次，让我和欣请你好吗？

差不多改完了，
是时候舒展一下身体，
待会儿还要记录分数，
然后去抱抱妈妈。。
还是不要好了，
免得我传染病菌给她。

一直收到无名氏的邮件，
知道了很多很多，都是我一直以来不知道的事，
要怎么说？要解释吗？
可是解释后，有什么改变吗？
被人误会也已经成了习惯，
其实，只要他们开心，也真的无所谓。
因为我也一样被蒙在鼓里很久，
一直到前天才发现。
心会痛吗?
这个。。。有所保留。
因为我要在全部人都知道我是最快乐，最爱笑的人。

好啦，快把那些伤心的事抛到远远去，
人生嘛，还是要再走下去的，
至少我还是有家人朋友在我身旁，
还有最疼我的老天爷，
我知道。。我是可以的！
谢谢你们！！

又开始写写写了...

2009-07-29T04:06:00.000-07:00

一大早就下大雨了, 好冷好冷...
披上厚厚的外套,还是觉得很冷
头昏昏的, 可是八点的课..
还是硬着头皮上学去...

到了... 才7 .15am
还有很多的时间，
雨点还是滴滴答答的打在车窗上，
不想下车，
很冷很冷。。。
竟然在车里睡着了。。

还好，7.55 am.. 起来了。
还是在下雨。。。
没办法，还是要下车了。。
撑着雨伞，
对了雨伞！！！我现在才想起，竟然留在课室里。
这是糊涂鬼。。

今天同学们又考试了，
同学只需写一份考卷，
可是我要改80 多份的考卷。
怎么今天这么冷啊。。

回到家了。。拿着一大包的考卷，
看来有得花花时间改他们的考卷了。
偷看妹妹一下。。。在吃苹果。精神也好很多了，
真是谢天谢地。。

回到房间，
突然脚软了，
头好昏哦。。。
探探热。。。竟然发烧了。。
快去洗澡。。。要冷却身体。。。

被妈妈发现我的不对劲了，
她叫我在家休息，
对不起妈妈，又让你操心了。
直到现在为止，已经收到你4 通电话了。。
真的对不起。。。
被自己沙哑的声音出卖了。。

妈妈，不用担心，我会很快好的，
因为老师说的对，要照顾人先要养好身子。
我会努力的。
吃了退烧药，好很多了。

亲爱的学生们，
我真的教得不好吗？
我记得这些我都在班上一而再，再而三的说了，
为什么。。。还是又这样写呢？
为了让你们记得，我还特地叫学生回答这个问题了，
可是。。还是很多人犯一样的错。。
为什么。。。
不行，我要继续努力，在你们的考卷上留言。。希望你们真的会记得。

好像今天全部改完，
看来。。是不太可能的事了。
开夜车吧！

忙碌的一天。。。

2009-07-28T02:53:00.000-07:00

胸口闷闷的，有点不舒服，
身体太紧绷了吗？还是心情还没恢复？
一大早，就开妈妈的补习中心，
然后就在对面食物摊等，
想想，妈妈好好像说昨天的米粉有点硬，芋头糕有点辣，
还是去别的地方打包好了。
绕了一大圈，整个ss19 ，除了老婆婆卖的面食，其他都没开。
怎么办？

算了，趁时间还早，博搏运气吧！
开车到 ss15，
一圈，一圈又一圈，
都没有开。
怎么办？？快要7点了，
还有1小时要上课了。
对了！还有妈妈最爱吃板面那儿啊。。怎么忘了呢？

皇天不负有心人，真的有开耶！
提着保温炉，终于打包到了！
看看手表。。天啊 7.10am
如果我迟到，学生一定恨死我了。
还是快点到医院去吧！

浓郁的药水味。。。
到了283 号房，
脱掉鞋子进房，怕吵醒熟睡的妹妹，
护士小姐说。。小姐，其实不用拖鞋的。。。
我知道。。只不过，我也不想吵醒妈妈和妹妹。

小心翼翼的提着食物，放在桌子，
果然妹妹真的睡得很香甜。
匆匆忙忙走了，跟时间拼了。

好赛车哦。。再看看。。 7点半了，
又开始慌了，
可是记得looi 老师说过，不可以飚车哦，
此刻要飚也不能吧！
不想了，什么都不想。。。
学生们，对不起。。不要生气我。。

身体有点酸痛的，头有点昏昏的，
病了，身体克服不了了，
不行！！颖徽，你要加油哦！
现在还不是时候。。撑着点。

到了。7.58am 。
老天爷，真的谢谢你。。
还好。。学生还没到。。
喉咙痒痒的，视线有点模糊，
不行，要专心点哦！
好了，准备了，要开始新的一天了！

熬到9点了，要去医院了。
又开始驾车了。
这次我很乖哦，没有开快车。
路上也没什么汽车，
身体有点松弛下来。

看到在医院的妹妹比较精神了，
妈妈也说妹妹退烧了，
谢谢老天爷，你真的有听到我的祈求，
帮我与妹妹替换了！谢谢你。
可是，我还有一个请求，
你可以再帮我一次吗？
你可以让我晚上或是一个人的时候，才很难受很难受？
最多，晚上才让我咳嗽得很厉害，就算整晚无法入眠都无所谓。
我不想妈妈再担心了，好吗？
我。。是不是太贪心了？对不起。。。

妹妹有力气的在床上一直在玩那个遥控器，
无聊的妹妹没体会过原来病床是可以动上动下的！
哈哈。。真可爱。。
忍。。要忍。。喉咙真的很痒。。
找个借口出去一下。
咳。。咳。。咳。。舒服多了。。

得去学校了。。还有课要上。。
遇到可爱的欣，
想和她说很多很多的话，
可是总是提不起劲。。
有点累了。。。
对不起。。。今天只是听你说，都没什么说到话。对不起。

上完课了，该做下半场的时候了，
到了妈妈的补习中心，
面对着天真无邪的小朋友，
心情有点好了。
再加上收到妈妈的讯息，妹妹可以出院了！
好开心哦。。
好吧。。努力！！颖徽加油哦！

5 点了，妈妈叫我回家接她，因为她有些补习中心的事要处理，
回到家，去看看妹妹，
妈妈又沉着脸说，妹妹又发烧了。。。
怎么会？难道是因为我有点精神了？
妈妈叫我自己回到中心，等等学生回家后，帮她打烊。
看到妈妈担心的脸孔，心好像沉下大海。。
可是还是笑着脸说，好吧。。中心的事包在我身上吧！

晚上7 点了，还有4 位小朋友，
希望待会儿回去妹妹会好点。。
老天爷，今天我又不乖了，
又要你陪我整个夜晚，听听我对你的哭诉了。
每次有事情，开心也好，不开心也好，都跟你说。。
请你。。不要对我厌倦好吗？
因为只有你让我有勇气，有加油的力气面对明天。

寻找。。

2009-07-27T03:27:00.000-07:00

上楼的时候，原本要看看妹妹又没有好一点，
怎知，妈妈妹妹都不在，
播妈妈的手机，
听到熟悉的手机铃声，
原来妈妈的手机忘了带，
到底去了哪里？？

顿时，慌了，脑袋一片空白，
到底去了哪里？
二话不说，拿着车钥匙冲了出去，
到底去了哪里？
一样的问题，一样的疑问，一直一直的重复，
第一个联想的是去妈妈补习中心附近的医药所。

下车，问了，没有！
在那儿绕了3 次，盼望看到红色的汽车，
没有!
那。。。在哪里？？
心里真的很不安，为什么。。。为什么没告诉我。

第一次开快车，
想想应该是在医院吧！
又匆去医院那儿，
又在绕了几圈，
几圈？？我忘了，真的忘了，
因为心里没算，只是心里要快快找到她们。
红车啊，红车啊，你到底在哪里？

那我现在应该去那里了？
对了，还有ss15的诊疗所。
像拨电话给昕，
没接。。。。。
眼泪流下来了。。不要。。。不要这个时候，不要这个时候哭
冲啊！快快。。
红绿灯亮红时，
十指紧扣，在那时刻，我祈祷，
上天啊，我知道一直以来你都是呵护着我，爱着我的，
让我知道她们到底在那里，好吗？
铃。。。。铃。。。铃。。。。
顿时，真的，上天真的有听我在说，
家里的佣人问我到底去哪里，她叫我快到医院去。
挂了电话，车这次比上次开得更快，
心里：谢谢你上天，我也是爱你！！

终于到了，
很重很重的药水味，扑鼻而来，
很难受。。。
跑。。一直在跑。。。
妈妈。。看到了。。
眼泪又落了。。真是没用的眼泪。。。
抱着她紧紧。。。
妈妈说。。真是没用。。又哭了。。爱哭得家伙。。
妈妈，我喜欢被你这样骂的感觉，至少我知道你就在哪儿。。

进房。。看到冷冰冰的插管插在瘦小的妹妹，
她，生病了。。。
我在祈求上天，
亲爱的上天，我又贪心了，
可以让我再许愿吗？
我要妹妹快快好起来，
我愿意用我剩下的寿命，让她快快好起来，
我不想妈妈再操劳了，
我不想妹妹又生病了，
好吗？

又在折纸星星了，
老天爷，我知道。。。
你有在看我的星星。。。
因为我好像你一样。。。
一样的爱着你。。。。

哭，忏悔，笑

2009-07-25T18:56:00.000-07:00

我知道生气一个人难受的感觉,虽然说"生气"这两个子的感觉，在我的身体里占有很少很少的位置，大概是因为爱哭的神经比较发达，导致生气的神经有点衰退吧！

可是我是超级会哭的人，例如嘛：
伤心难过得时候会哭，
被人骂了会哭，
惹人生气了会哭，
考试考不好会哭，
觉得做不好会哭，
一个人会哭，
看连续剧会哭，
就连看笑剧会哭，
被感动了会哭，
小baby出生了会哭，
太开心了会哭。

写着写着，突然也会想哭的感觉。

在此，我也想说声对不起：
妈妈，对不起，因为我不肚子不肯接纳食物的原因惹你生气，
可是我会尽力的努力吃。
爸爸对不起，因为我不够聪明，所以无法做你最棒的女儿，
可是我会很努力努力，一直到达到你最满意的level 。
弟弟妹妹，对不起，在你们上飞机的时候，因为我在学校，无法给你们亲吻和拥抱，
可是你们回来时，我会很用力的抱紧你们。
外婆，对不起，因为我没有工作的独立和生活的独立，无法带你太远的地方走走，
可是我很快就会长大，这样可以带你去你想去的地方。
欣，对不起，因为我是你的好朋友的联系，所以被挂上有义务陪着我的责任，
可是我已经长大了，而且我会更努力的学习独立。
Ong 老师，对不起，因为我的关系每次惹你生气，
可是我会尽本人的能力，减少生气的level, 提升开心的level。
Looi老师，对不起，因为我，打扰到你和欣吃饭的时间，而且还要迁就我敏感的麻烦，
可是我会努力的多带便当，不会让你们特地迁就我。
若琳，对不起，因为家人的反对，加上我有限的天资，不能和你到日本去深造，
可是我会勤劳的念书，学音乐，和等待，直到一天我们又能再次在钢琴上写完剩下的乐谱。
Hui Yan，对不起，在中三那年和你定下的咖啡约定，竟然忘了附上时间和地点，
可是我会那天耐性的等那天，拨电话给你，让你决定你要去的地方。
Bing Lee, 对不起, 因为我的遗忘, 竟然忘了你是我幼稚园的同班同学,
可是没想到上天让我与你中四一起同班，再次重逢的机会,让我们成了知己,一直到今天,所以我会很珍惜你这个失而复得的朋友。
Ling Si, 对不起，每次你都有难的时候，我只能在电话傍聆听你的诉说，却没有切实的行动助你，
可是你每次又不开心的时候，可以来我家，我可以把我的整夜让给你，让你说完你想说的事情。
Kitty，对不起，因为我爱哭的原因，每次都要你都我开心，
可是我会比以前更爱笑，因为我知道我开心的时候，你也会与我一起分享快乐。
Panda, 对不起，因为我每次上网，却不是在电脑的旁边，让你久等，
可是我会尽量看完你留下来的留言，也会在在那儿留言给你。
中六的同学，对不起，因为我的缘故，给你们添麻烦了，
可是我会希望你们会永远的幸福，快乐。
补习中心的小朋友，对不起，因为我的执著，每次都会擦掉你们不用尺划线的线条，和那些写得不整齐的字体，惹你你们发脾气，
可是我会尽我的所能，在同时让你们从写功课上寻找快乐，而不是简单的责任。
大学的学生，对不起，因为我有限的学识，却不能让你们得到最多的知识，
可是我会在前做很多很多的预备，至少也让你们学多那么的一点点。
孤儿院的小朋友，对不起，因为我没有出去的自由，所以没办法跟你们玩乐，
可是我希望有一天，可以每个礼拜，至少有3 天陪着你们，跟你们学做饼干和学很多很多的事情。
老人们，对不起，因为我的棋艺的限制，每次让你们能尽兴的下棋，
可是我希望我的陪伴，至少让你们觉得有那么一点点的安慰。
部落格，对不起，因为你是我唯一可以毫不保留的倾诉，所以被逼听那些无聊的事物，
可是我会尽量跟你说些快乐的，多过于悲哀的，这样你也可以和我一起分享快乐。

可是，我也是很爱笑的人哦，比方说：
看到妈妈笑，我也会笑，因为我知道妈妈是开心的
看到弟弟很开心的跟我聊，我也会笑，因为他愿意跟我分享一切，
跟二妹走街的时候，会笑，因为有她的的陪伴
跟妹妹做百目的事，也会笑，因为我知道有人陪我玩
和小朋友玩，会大笑，因为我知道他们和我一样都很快乐
跟人家下棋，输了也会笑，因为看到他们胜利而喜悦的感觉，
跟欣, looi 老师，和 ong 老师玩剪刀石头布的时候，也会笑，因为只有你们愿意陪我玩这个游戏，
跟若琳一起玩钢琴的时候，也会笑，因为你的音乐牵动的心旋，
跟朋友或亲人拥抱的时候，会笑，因为知道这些都是我喜欢的人，
跟bing lee, lingsi 一起聊天的时候，会笑，因为我喜欢听你们的故事，
跟听kitty的声音的时候，会笑，因为你都会说很多很多的童话故事给我听，
跟panda在上线时，也会笑，因为你都让我知道很多有关科技和佛学会的事情，
跟小动物玩的时候，也会笑，因为你们让我知道我一个人在家的时候有你们的陪伴，
在教书的时候，会哭笑，因为你们有时候让我觉得不知道怎样回应你们，
写着部落格的时候，会笑，因为只有你让我倾诉我所有所有的事情，
在写功课的时候，会笑，因为发现这个世界上真的有很多天才发现了这么多漂亮的theorem，
看着美丽的天空或是情景的时候，会笑，因为上天让我欣赏了这么美丽的大自然，
看着下雨天的时候会笑，因为雨声滴滴答答的打在我的窗口，大自然让我听到清脆自然的声音，
晚上写着心愿星星的时候，会笑，因为我知道这些愿望会让我身边的人幸福快乐，
晚上有Izabella抱着的时候，会笑，因为只有你让我进入梦乡，

可是现在写着部落格的我，竟然哭了，因为我真的很开心，原来我的开心是多过伤心的。我是幸福的。。。

谢谢上天让我早上看到这么棒的莲花,让我知道上天你是让我快乐才让莲花展开释放吧!

谢谢上天让我在入黑前,让我知道下午也是可以很漂亮的!

我爱你们! 谢谢你们!

new life!

2009-07-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Today, I climbed to my mother's place there to take a look on the new born baby. 3 days ago, I saw there were 2 eggs in the nest. Hehe. So cute... Obviously I din't take and cook them. Anyway I am allergic to eggs. Today, I decided to take a video on the two little eggs, I realized they had grown. Very cute little birds....

Cute right? Hehe... They want food. Luckily the mother was not there... Else I had no chance to take a video on it. Thank you god, giving a new life to nature. I hope that these both little babies will grow faster, and free yourself to where you want. 加油！　

Thank you teacher ong!!

2009-07-24T03:31:00.000-07:00

I am hereby to say thank you to dear teacher Ong treated us such a good lunch.. .Hehe. So sorry for making you and teacher Looi to drink the whole pot of tea.. Don't worry, if you can't sleep well, you can either ring me or Wang Wang up. Actually really happy that able to eat with you all, really appreciate a lot for giving me such a happy moment.. ^.^

Oh ya... the most important thing I need to do now is.....

UPLOADING!!!!

Two lovely teachers, teacher Ong and teacher Looi(acting as a beatiful flower)!

I realize now.... Their friendship is just as Wang Wang and I. But now... I had another 2 more teacher friends... How lucky am I...

Thanks for sending me the pictures, teacher ong!
I realized I don't have much pictures on yours... Next time I will capture more!!! ^o^

Hehe... Wang Wang faster say thank you to teacher Ong for taking such a nice picture of you..

So clever to pose leh!!

Game time!!!

Hmm... thinking hard what to put next.... hmm... Stone??

Ok then.... CLOTH!!!!

hehe... I saw my dear bag...

Before going to lunch, I waited for Wang Wang, as she was having her tutorials.. I remembered that 3 days ago, I received pictures from Teacher Ong, so suddenly I had a thought of.... taking her video!!

After that, we need to wait for Teacher Looi. After voting of 2/3, we agreed to attend his class! Hehe. Trying to capture him, but afraid that he will scold me. Trying very hard to focus on.... Sorry for the moving here and there.
But later I had try my best to zoom in... At least... something can be seen.

However, due to our disturbance, he was forced to end the class early... Hmm... Thinking that whether next week he will also end the class early if we attend his class again.....

Dear Wang wang trying to take teacher Looi pictures the moment he was teaching in front... Hehe.. But somehow... it seems unsuccessful... Teacher Ong so cute in this video!!

Wang wang, teacher ong and teacher looi... thanks for accompany me today... thank you!! Hugs

With siblings... suddenly stop at somewhere...

2009-07-21T04:33:00.000-07:00

Time : 8.30pm Monday
Location: Subang Parade
Purpose: Hmm... my brother needs to buy something??

I seldom go out, but this is the first time, where my sister, Qian, brother,Zheng and I, just three of us going out, without parents... Haha. This is my first time leh... As my close friend, they usually know that I really seldom go out...Perhaps... lazy...

The moment I went out with them... I saw something, which recalled me... Olden days...

The thing that makes my legs keep warm...

The things that make me walk and run around like mad person...

The thing I needed to make me feel full.....

The things that I need to wear before going out to play....
Obviously, at home, I just simply wore something, not dress....

The only thing that make me stopped crying....

The thing I need to hug every night to bring me to the dreamland... Izabella...

Slowly, Izabella met her first pal... Izabell...

Later... she met another different "type" of friend, Belle.....

Hey... Enough of taking my "friends" pictures.... The blog can't fit in so many pictures....

But I think, finally I realized....

I am OLD!!!

Mummy, thanks for bringing me to this world, to love you more!

weightage of importance...

2009-07-18T05:58:00.000-07:00

Who should attend? The one who support all your education fees, or the one who is the one you are closest to?

My friend was troubled how to deal with such situation. Actually, being a friend of her, I couldn't give much comment on that. In fact, I don't know what to say. So sorry, is not that I do not want to help you, but as a third party, I can't really comment much on that. The only thing I am capable is to lend you my pair of ears.

Convocation, to me... Nothing much, but just means that I was graduated. The only happy thing is that my parents will attend it, and I enjoyed having their companion. We do not have much time to accompany each other as they are busy with their works. By the time they are back, they are tired. However,there is much longer pathway I need to walk on. Actually, what will I be, seriously I would not know. The only thing I want to do is to help my mother, to support her. I want to bring her anywhere she wanted to go. All the while, I know that she loves traveling. However due to some reasons, this dream is not achieved yet. But slowly, as time passed, as I grow up, I will make this dream to be true. I will work harder to achieve it.

To my dear friend, don't be too upset over this thing. Just do what you want to do. I know that actually you know what you want to do, but whether you will do it or not, is another issue. Whatever you will do, I will support you. By the way, how is your day today? I believe that you enjoyed the outing. And thanks a lot for purposely visiting me in school. Seriously, I was touched by your action. Thanks a lot!

如果...

2009-07-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

如果世界上真的可以把如果当真，
妈妈，我希望我可以每天带你欢喜。
如果真的可以，
妈妈，我希望我会尽我所有的能力，我所有的力量去保护你。

妈妈，你每次都说我羡慕我的天真，
如果可以，我真的可以把我的天真与你分享。
妈妈，我喜欢听你的诉说，
虽然有时候我听不懂，
但如果可以，我希望当你对我诉说的那刹那，我减轻了你的负担。
妈妈，我很喜欢抱着你，
但如果可以，我希望我抱着你的时候，会给你温暖，让你知道你不是一个人。
妈妈，我喜欢吻你的脸，
但如果可以，我希望我的吻可以给你安慰，让你知道我真的很喜欢你。
妈妈，你吩咐我的事，我都会尽力地去做，
但如果可以，我希望我可以聪明些，不用你的吩咐，而自动明白你心里想要做的事。
妈妈，我知道你的痛楚，
但如果可以，我希望老天爷把这些痛苦让我去承担。因为我知道我真的可以，也会为了你去承担。
妈妈，我不喜欢看到你的流泪，
如果可以的话，我希望你的流泪不是因为悲伤，而是你的欢喜。

妈妈，有什么我可以为你做的吗？
如果真的可以把如果当真，上天。。。可以让我快快长大吗？因为我知道我要保护我的妈妈，我最爱的妈妈

Yeo's family pride... 杨家的骄傲!

2009-07-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

The main actor i wanted to introduce is my brother, Yeo Wei Zheng. Hmm... Hehe, as I had mentioned earlier, my parents went to his scholarship's ceremony last Tuesday. I wanted to attend so much, but I couldn't. However, at least I tried to grab something from my brother, since he is back now for a vacation.

Before that I just want to give an overview about my brother.
Name :
Yeo Wei Zheng ( Yeo's pride)

Gender :
Male (Duh....)

Age:
18 years old

Relationship status :
Single ( Hey girls!! Grab this chance!! )

Physical apperance:
Extremely tall ( the moment you look at him, you have to tilt up slightly your head) ,
Handsome , but not extremely handsome. (Hope he won't get mad if he read this)
Has a bright and charming smile. ( Ow... I really love it! )
Wearing specs ( What to do, genius also need to do so)

Characteristics:
A very nice person to talk to, not only sad, but also happy. ( He loves to jokes around, even though sometime I just can't get his jokes)
Extremely friendly ( just as me!)
Humble ( Towards others, but not me -.-)
Genius! ( Trust me, this is extremely true)

Hobby:
Sleeping (Heritage from my lovely mummy)
Computers (serving net, and scanning through my blog, just to make sure I
did not say any nonsense over here)
Pamper me! ( Just a joke)

Instead of writing so much, pictures show everything. Let us review the olden days... PS: There are some horrible pictures shown later. If you have any diseases related to heart problem, please don't see. If you are a child underage, please read this with the companion of your parents. Thank you!

My brother... forgotten how old is him. His favorite past time during childhood, drink tea.. Oops.. Sorry.. play with the tea.

Told you.. His smile is so wonderful!

Another bright smile! Cheers!

The first horrible picture is uploaded. Don't ask me why I said so. People who know me currently will what is the exact reason. Hehe.
See this is the difference between being a boy and a girl... Boy has mercs and girl has bicycle...

Hey my sister steal my bike!

Cunning and evil smile...!!

Forceful kiss.....

Yo...Yo.... Come on...

Act innocent.... So cute... Let me pinch him..

I had been updated some photos in facebook. For further pictures about my brother, please view my facebook.

But my brother now had grown up. No longer my little brother. It seems to be my elder brother instead, as he knows how to protect others. Haha. Obviously, most of the time he protects me. haha. I sound useless right?

Seriously... my brother is a bright star now... Show you something...

Seeing from left to right:
Yeo Wei Zheng( Woo~~~ my brother~!) Double Degree B Mechanical Engineering and Economics, NUS.
Others... nothing to do with me. I am not interested to know as well...

Through a rigorous selection processes, the four scholars were selected based on their leadership potential and academic excellence - a common traits shared by Keppel scholars. ( adopted from KGS). Hehe.... just to show off... my brother get full A's in his A level during his studies in Singapore. Well... I am not as good as my brother, so I had a lot of things need to learn from him.. I will work harder!

Looking at his bright smile, you definitely know that he is my brother. He is the only Malaysian, get Keppel's scholarship, where others are from Singapore. He is the only one able to obtain double degree, while others are just single degree. And he is the only brother, which I love, but not the others. Dear brother, I am really proud of you ... Keep on ya!!

See my brother so tall!! and skinny as well.. Haha.

Brother Zheng... Good luck ya.. hehe... I am proud that I am your sister. Hehe. But... you are kinda unlucky having such a sister... wahaha...

His individual poster. Wau... seems so professional.. I can forsee my brother future... Brother, deeply in heart, I will wish you all the best! Love you ya! Hugs...

Ying Hui

Recovering stage

2009-07-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

Had been trying hard not to think,
but those pictures are just sliding as it is a movie,
the whole night had been haunted by those feelings,
Seriously this time, I was scared.

Keep persuading myself not to think,
the more I convince myself, the more I am not convinced,
the smell of tears and the sound of fear lingering my mind,
I hold my Izabella tighter and tighter just to make sure myself is safe.

Dear mama,
Can you wait for me to grow bigger?
I promise will you bring you somewhere that makes you happy,
staying away those scary scene that you always face.
Let me stay beside you and support you,
at least I know that I am useful and I can love you.

Mama, I love you. Be strong, and I promise I will recover as soon as possible, staying besides you, and stay strong with you. You can count on me!

A letter to grandfather

2009-07-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

Dear grandfather,
Grandfather, how are you now? You have left me quite a number of years. Are you still accompanying me every night up in the sky? Are you looking at me from far apart every night? Why don't you come and give me a dream, telling me how well are you ? If you are really there, I believe you will be angry as I broke my promise today. Sorry, I really didn't know that it is beef. Grandpa, will you angry? God, can you forgive me? I know you all love me alot, after knowing that it a beef, I quickly forced myself to vomit all out. I had been trying and trying. I even called up my mother, crying over the phone. Grandpa, I am really sorry.

Today my maid as usual cook dinner. She brought out a dish, which I look at it at the first place, it seems to be beef. I asked her even 3 times, confirming that whether were they beef. She strictly confirmed to me that they were not. I trusted her. I took one piece, but the taste really beef. But i continue trusting her. But I just took one piece, as I really feel uneasy after eating it.

Dad came in, smiling to me, calling me to eat another piece of it. I really feel strange at that moment. Seriously, suddenly I felt that wanting to throw out, without knowing what was the reason behind. He smiled, I knew it. It was beef. Basically he just wanted me to eat, wanted to built my antibody since I was allergic to beef. He said that as long I eat more often, my body will get used to it. At that moment, I really feel sad and shocked. Just simply used an excuse to excuse myself and immediately ran to my house and tried to vomit out. Failed. Had been trying very very hard, begging myself, please.... please throw all these.

Feeling sad and distracted, I rang up to my mother. The first thing she heard I am crying, she felt frustrated. I know her character, she don't like people to cry. That is why all the while, I am a happy-go-lucky person. But definitely not for today, I was seriously down. Once in my life, really sad. I cried to her, I felt that I broke my promise. From her words, she inspired me. She told me that the person who don't know that actual fact is not wrong. Immediately I stopped crying. Sadness remained, but I knew that nothing can be done much. The only thing I need to do is to wait what is next punishment I will received. But after about 15 min, I tried to throw out again, and this time I successful thrown out something, but whether did I vomit the beef part, seriously I don't know.

The moment my grandpa was seriously ill, I swear to God not to take beef. But today, after so many many years, about more than 10 years, I broke it. Grandpa and dear God, can you forgive me?

At last, the punishment arrived. my body and face kinda start to get swollen and feel itchy. I am allergic. Took a small piece of medicine and now, the medicine starts it's effect---drowziness. I could not really look at the words clearly now, I think another 10 min, I will be sleeping like dead horse.

But just 2 min ago, I heard something from my mother. Actually my maid - Tess, at the first place, she knew that that was beef. Suddenly I was hurt. I told her at the first place, I seriously cannot take beef because of promise. I thought she could understand since she was really strong in her religion. But ... why is this so? Perhaps, I should also follow her God said, " God forgive everything..." Obviously, I was not angry at her, just feel hurt.

Besides, I would like to hope and promised another thing to God. Dear God, can you let me share the burden of my mother's sickness? I willing to bear with her, as long as she is getting well soon.

Grandpa, I going to the dreamland, can you accompany me tonight?

YingHui

The third one for today?

2009-07-07T02:51:00.000-07:00

Haha. Really bored as I forget to bring my lifecon II reference books to the tuition centre. Basically nothing much to do, but the only thing I can do is blogging. Hmm... just feel that playing game in centre or chatting doesn't really look good. But typing at least seems professional... from people's view.. haha. Because they won't enter the office mar, so just pretend. Sounds bad right?

Today afternoon after taking lunch with zx, she brought me back to PD block to attend my following class. But there is another hour to go to attend the class, planning to go to the library, but in the mean time I met Hui Shing. She wanted to have her lunch. Ohm y, another lunch? I can't really take it. But, I just accompanied her to eat. The moment we were in the canteen, full of people, no seat available. So what to do, she just packed her food, and I followed her to her office and accompanied her. Haha. Well, I guess meanwhile, she accompanied me as well. I should say that in the other way. I am those who are more relying and depending on others. Once zx is not around, I really feel scared being alone in school. Unfamiliar faces and meeting different characters of people... just feel uneasy. Seriouly, sometime I think besides zx and some of my close friends, I may have difficulties talking to others. Am I shy? Not really.... but also ya especially to someone who look serious and different from me. haha. I am just those we can play with anyone, as long as the person wants to play with me. But my conversation topics are limited, as I seldom go for outing. Most of the time staying either in library, home or in my mother's tuition centre. Life sounds bored right? Well, back to the point. I did have a enjoyable conversation with hui shing. Thank you hui shing for the dried strawberries, they are really tasty. I really love them a lot! Hehe.. You are such a sweet girl, no wander you and your boy boy have been together for such a long time... Envy!!

After that I joined my class and immediately rushed to my mother's place for the second session of work. Oh my, I am late. Had been trying to speed. But the maximum speed i could in the highway is just 70km/h. Else, I wouldn't feel confidence to drive on.

Oh is raining now. I miss my bed and dolls at home. I want to bath... feel a bit sticky after all I was outside almost the whole day. Haiz... now is just 6.10pm.. .Another 1 and the half hour only can go home... I want home... Today feel kinda alone... Perhaps my mother is not around... My brother will be back tonight... hehe.. How is he recently? Wanted to go out with him, hehe... anyway I had quite a lot of things to tell him...

Lonely...... raining... I want rainbow!!

Hinted words to someone

2009-07-06T19:56:00.001-07:00

Yesterday someone was frustrated, telling me about something... I would like to write here, just a reminder for her... hehe... Oops... I declared that is a she!!! She told me this:

A USELESS GIRL IS GOING TO BE BRAVE!!!

Will it be? I doubt so......

Waiting for zx in PA block

2009-07-06T19:46:00.000-07:00

Waiting time to pass... Currently I was waiting for zx in PA block, using the lab to write on a blog. I had just completed one. Hehe. Of course, that was a joint account with someone... Shh... secret ya!

Besides waiting for zx, I had to head to the finance deparment to pay on my convocation fees. Oh my, another few hundreds are gone. Haiz... I didn't know that until I received a bill, saying that we had to pay for convo... The moment I see the amount... shaking my head.... another unexpected spending...

Nothing much done till now since it was just 10 something in the morning. I just had one hour tutorial class this morning and that all I had done till now. After teaching, zx meet me up and we had our breakfast in canteen. We just had a drink as it was still early in the morning.. Not much appetite. We couldn't even finish up half cup, so think of one idea, the usual game... Paper, scissors, stone game. Who lose have to finish up not only her own cup of drink, but also the other one. Hehe. I won! zx had to finish up! Hehe.. thank you zx. But at the same time, there was a lecturer noticed our actions, and stated that we both are really goof friends... haha.. Obviously! Then asked us to introduce ourselves, but most of the time he was talking with zx since both of them are from penang, while I am from local... hehe... So... I just keep quiet lo!!

I guess by now, my parents had went to Singapore to meet my brother. I was informed this mornign that I need to teach at 2.30pm... But my class ended at 2.00.. Haha. I had to rush back once my class end... Haha... must be a tiring day again.

Oh is about time, another 2 min to 11am. I have to stop now and continue the new one later. Else... zx will be waiting for me!

Love you mum!

2009-07-06T05:07:00.000-07:00

Had been busying for the past 2 days, marking students' papers and shopping with my mother. Haha. Sound nice right? This is the first time I marking uni students' papers, sounds.... excited and tired at the same time. The moment when I calculated the total marks and found that it is ranked at 49%. I tried to find some points that convinced me that he/she is deserved for additional marks. As a result, among 70++ students of them, I failed one. Had been trying very hard to find relevant points, but yet failed to do so. I will try harder to deliver my knowledge to my students. I know that I didnt do well on this, but I will try even harder so that they can sharpen their skills. Meanwhile I also have to upgrade myself to learn even more so that I am able to discuss with them if dealing with different kind of questions and the techniques of answering them.

Yesteday, Sunday, went out the whole day with my mother to shop for new clothes, as she will be attending my brother's scholarship ceremony tomorrow. Hey, my dear cute little brother, congratulation and be smart tomorrow ya. Even though I couldn't attend since I had to work in uni and in the meanwhile taking care of my mother's tuition centre. Yesterday, I had a good conversation between me and my mother. It had been quite sometime we didn't really have a good talk, since she had been sicked quite sometime and busy around with her things in her centre. As a daughter, I would like share some of her burden, but frankly speaking I couldn't really help much as there are many things I couldn't handle. For instance, dealing with difficult and demanding parents, which only keep complaining. The moment looking at that, saying unreasonable requests and harsh words, looking at the side of me, feel so heart ache that my mother needs to suffer all this. We talked on past, current and even futures. Many things happened in the past, lots of pains and sadness, but it is worth remembering them, because without them, they would not strengthen our mother-daughter relationship. About current, I hope that my mother can get well soon from suffering terrible and tremendous gastric. If able so, I would like to share this painess with my mother, to lessen her pain and struggles. About futures, I would imagine how will my life be? my future job, future partner and future family. I hope that my mother can play with my babies and my babies give my parents happiness and warmth to them. Even though the journey to in short, we talked many things and this short conversation will become one of my precious memory in the rest of my life. Mum, I love you. I do not know whether I am able to go to Australia for further study. I know that even though I go, I will wash my face with tears everyday, having a terrible homesick. Haha.. But if I really go, I want you to go with her for a short vacation over there, since I know you like traveling as well if there is a chance given. And be prepared to be shoot by frequent 3G calls, most likely I will be keep calling you everyday or even twice per day.

Basically my mother was supposed to buy her clothes instead, but ended up I bought more than her. Haha. What a lovely mother I have. Besides saying thank you to my mother, most likely I have to thank God that giving me such a great mother. Since she is not satisfied with the clothes she bought, we planned for another shopping that night in subang parade. Haha. But before that we went to Mcdonald to have our lunch and went home for a rest. Well, as normal, my mother took her nap, but not me, since I had to continue with marking student's papers. Headache....

After marking till 7pm, we went for dinner in esquire Kitchen in subang Parade. A small and simple dinner, with just 2 dishes and sharing a bowl of rice with my mother, but the dinner was costly. Tax is really a great thing! After dinner, my youngest sister, Yan nagged for buying a new pencil case, which influenced by her peers recently, addicted to a new kinda cartoon --- some new girlish stuff. Well, I had to admit as well that I love girlish things as well. We head to VOIR to meet up my mother. Ending up nothing suits her over there and therefore we decided to find clothes in Parkson. Finally ended that she was confused of choosing 1 same design of dress, with different colours. She had been trying among these 2 dresses, and of course in between something funny happens, but sorry that I couldn't reveal here as I was warned by my mother at the first place, not to say anything details in my blog. Well, she did read my blog on and off. Haha. Finally she made her choice, happily paying her clother over the counter. Satisfied!! Let go back to our home sweet home.

Mum, thanks for staying around me all the time. Sometime I may accidentally hurt you, but I don't really mean to. I am sorry. Seriously, I love you. God... love you too, because I felt I am lucky!

Thank you and thank you

2009-07-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the late blog posted. It should be posted at night of 3th July 2009. I would like to grab chance over here to say thank you those below:

Mother :
Thank you mummy for delivering me. To me, my birthday is important in my life, not
because of receiving presents , wishes or any celebrations, but it is the day where you
were suffering in the deliver room, fighting with the death of god, just to deliver me. I love you, mummy!

Father:
Thank you dad for bringing me a nice dinner on my birthday. Even though you are strict to me and all the while talking to me seriously, but these few days with hugs and more chat, I felt that deep in your heart, you love me. I love you too daddy.

My second sister: Ying Qian
Thank you for calling me from Singapore even though I didn't pick up your phone at the first place as I was busy with students' consultation. I heard that soon you will be back from Singapore to Malaysia and will be attending my graduation. I am so happy having a sister like you, since most of the time you are taking care of me, even though I am elder than you. Haha. Well, because of you independence, I tend to reply more on you. Since young we were classmates and you have been collecting all the tuition fees from dad and helped me to pay out as parents usually think that I am really clumsy and forgetful over small things as such. I love you my sister!

My brother: Wei Zheng
haha... funny cute little brother! Thanks you for wishing me over the phone almost at night 8pm. Haha. Of course I remembered the exact time because at that moment you were talking to mama and I was in the car on the way for dinner. Due to reminded by mama, you only wish me. Haha. Hey, luckily I am not your girl! If not.... I will chop your head... Just kidding. Love you a lot too my brother!

My youngest sister: Ying Xin
My dear cutest little sister, who had been consistently bully me every single moment, just for the fun. Well, you are the one I stay with the longest, since everyday I pick you back home, and doing homework together with you, as well as singing with you in the toilet whenever we bath. Just enjoy your companion, but not enjoying the moment fighting with you and keep on nagging on you to do your homework! Hey ... my lovely sister, can you please..... do your homework as fast as possible?

Best friend ever: Sze Wang
Thank you for buying me such a cute and nice cake and the handmade craft. I was really touched the moment I read what you have wrote to me. I never imagine that our relationship can last so long, starting from year 1 sem 1 till today we work as collaegue in UTAR. I enjoy the moment we joke around, playing around madly and having unlimited conversation everyday. Haha. There are even friends around us thought that we both are talking to lover the moment we are on phone. Well, everyday I need to hear your voice and some busybody news from you, else... my life is dull and gray. Hehe... next time we scoop the cake from bottom again while eating ya! This time I want you to shout in the middle of the road. Love you mizuho!

Kitty cat:
Haha... thanks for the call at12.05 am midnight. By that time your place is about 2 something right? You purposely need to awake till so late even though you are sick and staying outside talking to me with 9 degree celcius. Oh my, I can feel how chill is that. Thanks for the parcel you sent for me, must be very costly right? So sorry making you spend on me again, next time no need to send to me anymore ok? Hmm... Just call me and wish you happy birthday, I felt happy enough already. Hugs!

Panda:
Thanks for the big dog you gave me and with her cute little name :Lazy bone dog. Haha. Sound weird after translating from chinese. Haha. next time no need stand till 10 meter far away from me, I am not affected by H1N1 or any other spreading diseases. Haha. But... Thank you all the while remembering my birthday. But next time no need to bring present for me... Just message me or call me will be fine ad. Seriously I will be happy enough! ^.^

Yieng Ming:
Thank you for the teddy chocolate present, even though you received from zx as I was busy meeting up with Mr William about student's test. So sorry about that and you purposely take leave just to want to celebrate with me but I couldn't turn out. However, really thanks a lot of the present you gave me!

Teacher looi:
Thank you teacher for celebrating with me, together with zi xing. Haha. Fun to play scissors, stone and clothes with you. Hehe. I won for the second time. I heard that from zx, you couldn't sleep till 1 something as you are forced to drink the whole jar of tea... No choice mar... you lose the game, so have to be punished lo! hehe... teacher... thank you for treating me and zi xing, and so sorry for being light bulb all the time. Besides that, I also want to say sorry that you always see me like "傻婆"like that.... hehe... Have been use to it mar... so no choice lo... have to bear with for few months k ?

Best friend since form 6: Kit keong
Thank you for the graduation crystal bear. I really meaningful and cute. Hehe.. This time is no longer a book. I wonder... this time your mother wrap the present for you again? Hehe. Besides, thank for accompanying me to attend the AEP class. Luckily you are there, else I will be attending with those juniors and no one talk to me... Feeling lonely and cold... you know... labs kinda cold recently.

Siao za po 2: Eunice
Hehe... Thank you eunice! Recently have been addicted to share fruits with you in the centre. Just a whole papaya, cut into halg, holding a spoon and start to scoop! hehe.. We have tried papaya, honeydew... Let try big watermelon coming week. hehe... I guess later we will ended up fighting for the toilet.

Besides to all my friends and relatives below:
May Ping, Hui Yan, Jia Tong, Sok Pei, Eng Hwa, Cuti, Kuek, Yee Fong, Yah Wen, Pan Yuen, Vincent, Chee Onn, Hui Shing, Cheong Keen, Alex, Ann Li, Tess, Xue Chong, Keng Yang, Wei Wei, Kam, Sammy, Debbie, Wee Lee, Amanda Chok, Zhi Yee, Yun Xian, Chai Hong, Kian How, Sze Yin, Chun Yung.... purposely send me a message and wishes me. Did I left anyone else? I hope not. Hehe. Really... thank you very much. hugs!!! Thank you~

One more left, thank you god for loving me so much and able to love and loved by

A long talk with daddy during dinner time

2009-07-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

It had been quite sometime my daddy and I sitting together over the round table and having a long conversation. All the while we seldom met. Either is I took my dinner earlier, or he is not around at home. Today, after quite some long time, I couldn't even recall since when, he called me to take a piece of paper and a pen to jot down some points.

Basically I was planning to make a glass of lemon tea for my daddy, and with his sudden request for having a conversation, I was shocked. Questions keep appearing in my head, " Oh my, what happen ? Did I make him angry again?" I suppose not.

It was kinda nice conservation we had. He told me a story. There was a trader, known him 3 months ago, trading on antiques. Well, my dad is antique collectors. There was a piece of antique whereby my dad offered to sell it at RM500. The trader, B would like to offer his price on RM300. Well, the deal is not on, but anyway, my dad still treat him lunch and said that I will continue to offer this condition just for 1 month.

After 1.5 months, trader B came and looked for my dad, asked him whether had him sell his antique. My dad said no. No one wanted to buy for it. So the trader B satisfied and offered himself again, "Hey guy, since there is no one selling, I increased my offer to RM400, how is it?" . My dad immediately shaked his head, saying "Ya, I will sell it to you if you pay RM5000."
Trader B thought that he heard wrongly, said " WHAT!!! Are you crazy? Did you mention it wrongly?" My dad smiled, confirmed that what he said was absolutely correct. He scolded my dad, even saying some foul and offensive words against my dad. My dad remain silence and told him patiently," Hey guy, I remembered telling you that my offer condition is 1 month. The more I look at the antique, I realized that it does not worth only for that. But anyway, I still give you the same condition, open such condition for another 1 month." After saying that, that trader B walked away angrily.

Till last week, he came to my dad again, thinking that for sure my dad haven't sold out for that piece of antique, and asked him proudly, " Hey man! Have you sold that piece of thing?" My dad waved to him, indicating that he haven't sold it. Trader B using his critic eyesight, offered another time to buy that thing at the price of RM3000. My dad said,"But there is someone offering to buy that piece of antique for RM2 million. But my dad haven't agree to sell to that person yet. The moment the trader B, immediately took out his cheque book and wrote a cheque of RM2million and handed it to my dad. The deal finally is on.

Over this incident, I believe the trader B must have some buyers, that therefore he is so desperate to own that piece of antique. Well, human are always so, the moment when there is an opportunity, they let slip a chance to grab it. The more you want to bargain, the more you may lose more. But anyway I did not mention we should not bargain, but instead, taking every opportunity you have, never let it to be one of the thing you will regret on. So, have you grab it tight now?

Dear daddy, thank you for telling me this story. I will grab the chance to hear from you more often. Thank you dad!

Finally the last tutor for this week

2009-07-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

At last today is the last day tutoring for this week. Had been quite exhausted for sometime, repeating the questions and answers again and again. I can even remember what is the exact value for each questions even though there is lot of decimal points. What can you expect? Just like today, I repeated the same tutorial for 3 times! haha...

Time management seems to be a problem to me, where I ended the class a bit late, keep on throwing questions to students... I realized I can be quite evil... Wahaha.. imagine if teacher keeps asking me questions, I definitely scare of that teacher.. Well... I doubt whether they are afraid of me.

Eating alone in canteen, feeling uneasy since all the while having zx as companion. However luck was on my side today, I met Hui Shing while enjoying my lunch box. Hehe.. I brought my lunch box to school!! Sound good girl right?? haha... Enjoy gossiping with hui shing while eating, grumbling over students and even feel scare tutoring them since our ages are too close. Basically I don't really like them to feel as a tutor, but instead a friend is much more appreciable. I understand that being a student which I used to be, afraid raising questions to lecturers even though my head was full of questions marks. I don't mind sharing with them, but better still can have a group discussion, where many opinions and thoughts are thrown out for brain storming. I believe that one-way talk does not really expand out knowledge, but a great and meaningful discussion really does.

Suddenly I miss those days when I was a student. Basically all the while, seldom friends discuss with me any questions, besides kit keong. We both do discuss questions, keep on creating more questions, making our thought in a deeper level. Of course, I hope that one day there is another person which I can share my thoughts with and discuss together, but not arguing. ^o^ I know that the person who he/she is.

Thank you my dear cat for buying me the books. I really appreciate them a lot and will work even harder for the future. Issho ni gambate yo! ^o~

Troubling day

2009-06-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

So sorry class for the replacement, I was troubled with those questions. So sorry for that. Facing a lot of brilliant students, kinda stress.. I know that I am not a good tutor, but seriously I really want to try my best. What should I do at this moment? I am confused...

Yesterday waking up for at least 7 times, almost could not wake up on time this morning... Luckily I managed to wake up, else this will be my first time late for tutor... Imagining those views, kinda embarrassing. Start to lose out my voice, I guess, raising my voice is another tough job. I have been raising my voice, but meanwhile I am sharpening the tone as well. Haha, I guess those students attending my class may have ear aches.

Besides, I would like to apologize to Dr Liew for delaying class today. I didnt realize the time passed so fast. Sincerely so sorry about that.

Wei... Miss Mizuho, please update your blog, else ... I have nothing to read leh. Ever since I graduated from uni, have been clicking on your blog, but nothing.. Better write something... If you want to write in chinese, I will be more appreciate because I really love to read what you wrote in chinese... It is so sentimental...

Another new week

2009-06-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

First, I would like to make use of this blog here to thank my lecturer, Dr Yong for giving me some rambutans and hui shing for the tomatoes and strawberries.

Another monday teaching the tutorial 1 class. As usual, the first class usually is the worst one to be taught of, as i was not yet familiar with the new tutorials questions. Am i too panic looking over them? Of course! Our ages are too close and i don't really feel that I am tutoring them, but more to discussion. I hope they don't mind that I am being fresh. But basically, standing on a student, obviously I also hoping for a more experience tutor guiding us. I know I have many limitations, but at the moment, I would please the students to bear with me for just couple of weeks. Personally I really do think that I am not good in lecturing them. Haha. Studying alone and teaching them are totally two different things.

Have been thinking one single question, starring at it for more than 20 min. Haha. Quite some time didnt pick up my MLC subjects. Many things are thrown behind. Picking up them needing quite some time, and at the current stage, I still have to take my C exam preparation. Really hope that things can flow well. But anway, I will try my best.

The itchiness still lingering around. Oh my, how long do I still need to bear such torture. Well, my dear students, hope you get good results in your coming friday quizes. Sorry, I do not have any tips for you guys, as I didnt even look at the questions. Haha. Even though I glance through, I don't think it is right to telling them without the knowledge of my supervisor. Hehe. Of course, I am ethitical, knowing that I should do and not. ^o^

where has my calculator gone?

2009-06-28T03:20:00.000-07:00

Feeling sad and uneasy? Obviously, because I couldnt recall where did i locate my new calculator. Feeling quite sad, not only of this, and because I am kinda unwell. The feeling of itchiness really unbearable.

Sunday, suppose to revise on the Life Con II, preparing for tomorrow tutoring, but.... Time passes really fast. The moment I just finished up one subject, it was already night. Most likely have to work even harder for tomorrow. Don't feel like eating, don't know why... Am i depressed? Haha. I don't think so. Most likely my menstrual is coming soon. Haiz... So itchy!!! Can anyone release me please from this itchiness? Really unbearable...

Nothing much to write today, I really hope that i just left my calculator in my mother's place instead, else.... I have to pull out some money to buy a new one. Oh my, it was just new.. I really love that calculator a lot! My dear calculator, can you come back by my side? I have been missing you since 2 days ago.

a simple word --- thank you

2009-06-27T00:49:00.000-07:00

Even though today is satuday, but i still have to work in my mother's place due to replacement class for Hari Raya. As a substitute for one of the teacher, who should be teaching chinese today in the afternoon. Basically, I realized that teaching is kinda fun job. I love to deal with someone lively, rather than facing the computer over and over again, dealing with unlimited data running in front your eyes, and detecting a little tiny little error in a 5 to 9 pages long of program. Facing kids, I know how to smile, how to get frustrated, thinking many ways just to let children to understand something. But dealing with computer is just a one way feeling.

Today i read an article/ passage while teaching the kids, with the title 'Appreciation". Feel kinda warmth when saying this topic, I guess a single word " thank you" really means a lot. How long havent you say "thank you" to the one you love, your parents or even the one you are close to? Another power word is I love you . I guess later I have to say I love you mum and dad. Thank you pampering me and loving me. I love you all. Of course to all my friends and the one i know.

First week of tutoring

2009-06-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

The moment i get offered to tutor those year 3 students, oh my god. I could not really imagine how painful is it. I guess the first thing is that they couldnt listen to my voice. Finally I understand treating an adult and a kid is totally a different thing. Facing a kid, just use the cane and wack it on the table loudly, they can immediately become timid chicken, but it is not the same as treating those 20+ years old kids. haha. Basically our ages are so close that, sometime treating them more as friend rather than tutoring them.

I was so afraid that I couldnt really teach them well. I believe i did teach them something wrongly which are discover at the moment. Really afraid. There is even one boy who challenged me in front of the class, clarifying that I am too young to teach him, he wanted to switch to Mr William's class. Personally I do feel that he should do that. Basically I have to admit that Mr William is very experience in teaching life contingency. I even love to attend his class during my uni time. I miss those days attending his class. However, most likely I do not have such chance anymore. Oh my, how can I really teach those kids? I am really scare at the moment. Perhaps I have to repeat my revision over and over again. Haiz... have to help out with my mother centre tomorrow even it is a Saturday.

These few days, I have been hanging around with zx, attending her teaching. Well, I know that the time we can meet is no longer long. What i can do right now is appreciate what I have now. Hope everything turns out good. Cheers baby!

dancing map

2009-05-14T02:26:00.000-07:00

The moment i look through the video recorded into my handphone, i realized there are 2 videos that are related to my sister playing the dancing map. Haha. I guess Ying Qian ( my second sister) will be mad after looking at this. Well, I just want to put all my memories into my blog. I am afraid that one fine day my memory will lost. 2 days ago i flipped through the old photo albums to help my sister's project, I realized all photos show all out happy memories. I would hope that one fine day, I can share all my happiness and sadness through here. Who knows, one day, all my siblings and my parents will enjoy the video together in a gathering. Besides uploading in the blog, I will also burnt a CD just for backed up.

Another wrong version of playing dancing map... haha.. don't learn this.

hehe... but quite nice looking at them playing with the same direction!

Believe me, if I am the one dancing, you would definitely saw an elephant dances. ^o~

Gathering in aunt's house

2009-05-14T01:45:00.000-07:00

So sorry that it had been quite awhile without updating my blog. I have been busy around with my final exam. Well, eventually I am having a long holiday now, and basically i am under unemployment now. Haha. Every morning, the moment i opened up my eyes, I am no longer afraid of how many topics left to study. Previously during my last semester final exams, I have been worried for very long time. Racing over the time, counting how many topics more left to to revise. Kinda miss those worrying and hectic life, weird right? The moment I am having exam, I kept thinking how nice that day is a holiday, at least I can have a good rest awhile. But now.... totally different thinking.

Today I would like to update my blog. Actually have been wanting to upload a lot a lot of things around me. One of them was about gathering in my aunty's house. How long was it? Kinda forget. I guess is about half a year ago. Oh my.... I have been neglected this blog about half a year.

All of them are my relatives. Basically i am the eldest among all my cousins. Haha. I know I am old, but not as old as my mother, aunties and uncles. I guess my mother will be chopping me off after reading this. Most of my mother's siblings are here, except for my eldest and second uncles as they are living far away from KL. Even though it was just a short gathering, but everyone enjoyed that moment. I love my family, not only that, but also my relatives.

Just a continuation of gathering video1. Haha. Basically they are busy photos before leaving. Now i recalled, actually this gathering happened during Chinese New Year 2009 . Because I remember we ate yu seng.

Tiger skin rug

2008-10-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

When I was young, I remember there was a tiger skin rug in my grandmother's house. I couldn't really recall until the moment i went to the internet and search for it....

It is really cruel to see such tiger being killed just for the sake of their skin. Imagine I am being peeled and torn into pieces... Ouch... I couldn't really bear such torturing feelings. Just to tell you... I am also born in the year of tiger... Please do not count how old am I...(^^)

Look at the picture... OUCH>... It is awful....

But....

But...

But....

I need to tell you another thing.....

I also have one tiger skin rug in my room.....I am sorry... Even though i say how cruel it is, how bad it is.... I own one....

Please forgive me.....

I promise.... I won't buy it anymore....

I say it sincerely....

But... wasnt this cute?? You can't really blame me for that.... It was CUTE!!

back from singapore and johor

2008-10-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

I went to my brother's graduation on Friday, kind of nice. Missing my siblings who are studying in Singapore for the past few years. Of course, I wouldn't miss the chance of taking their photos.

You know what did i see during my journey? I saw a dog in the sky! (Actually it was found by my mother....)

I didn't know that my sister has a pair of sunglasses... I dun have :(

The moment we reached Johore(more precisely Benut), my mother and my sister ate ice creams.. Yummy... But i didn't eat, as i just don't feel like eating it. Haha.. Look at them, they really enjoy it...

"Dang Dang....." Our guest of honour.. haha... My brother... our purpose of our trip... It was his graduation day in A levels... Ah Di!!! Add oil.. Hope you get full A's in your A level ya! Gambate..

I have added a video clip, regarding my brother taking his award ---- a bear!! He didnt give me... sad....

I wanted to take a photo with him... But he is a camera shy person... What to do... He is too handsome.. Wahahaha!!! So the only thing i can take is just video, doesn't have excuse anymore...

Another camera lady---- my sister, Qian... She is damn pro in taking picture... nice nice!! Haha... in picture on the left hand side... A guy in a yellow shirt, is my daddy. Haha.. round round tummy... cute!

Youngest sister --- Yan Yan... showing off her beautiful teeth... She dropped 3 teeths total just in a day! Yan.... no more sweets ya... and ice-cream too...

An unrelated person ---- I do not know who is he.. But he keeps playing with me.. Haha... cute child.. So just take a photo of him for fun.

I found something interesting.... I didn't know that nowadays singapore boarding school's garbage bin has the same colour as my sister clothes... Haha.. Pink!

After attending my brother's graduation... It was tiring. We stayed one night in one of my relative's house, located in Singapore too... Haha.. I was exhausted.. However, I couldn't sleep well... I miss my Isabellla and Isabell (my pillows!)

The next day we had our breakfast with my relatives. They are my father's aunt and her husband. Very friendly people, and I realized my uncle loves my pink bubble shoes. Hehe. He will be coming over my place in Oct, well... as an appreciation of treating us so well, I had decided to buy a pair of bubble shoe for him... Obviously not pink in colour...

After having our breakfast, we packed our things and going to Johore--- my cousin , Xuan Xuan
house... I had introduced her before in my facebook... She is also youngest sister's best friend. Well before leaving Singapore, of course have to snap some photos for memory...

Evidence---- My brother is bullying my sister...

He is still feeling shy in front of my camera...

Naughty Yan... Doesn't want to show her teeth anymore...

Mama, Papa and Yan ... Papa so clever... hide his face behind so that doesn't seems too round...

Brother, Mama, Papa and Yan Yan.. Haha... at last of propert photo of my brother...
But still he doesnt want to take photo with me....
:(

Actually I wanted to put up one more photo... But my mama warned me not to upload that photo.. Well... I guess you guys know what is the reason... Some photos which will embarrass my mother.. Haha... She is just shy...

So let go!!! To Xuan Xuan's house! Basically the moment we reached there was almost in the evening... So we planning for lunch.. Besides inviting Xuan Xuan family, my uncle--- I called him "Jiu Jiu", also staying in Johore currently joined us for lunch. We went to a shopping complex... After taken our lunch... playing time!

I was so fascinated by my cousin.. She is really good in playing the drum... So expert! She is really a fast learner.. Oh my... So envy...

Of course my sister would like to join her along. They were so concentrate in their game... Wau...

The woman in greenish blue beautiful lady is Xuan Xuan's mother. I doesn't have chance to take her personal photo. A very patient and nice lady--- treating us happily and kindly... I would like to take a chance to say thank you... Thank you "Ah Jim!"

Wow... they are too concentrating.. Haha... Actually i played also.. until both my hands pain... Haha.. How useless am I....

A short video just too show how "chun" my cousin and sister playing the drum... Photos along doesnt seems perfect enough.. Haha.. I am really an expert camera lady...

Well... This is my uncle who I called him "Jiu Jiu".. Playing basketball with her daughter--- Diana ( my cousin too) haha... It was really a tough job to take such action.. They passed the balls really very fast.. After a few things of snapping, at last I am quite satisfy with this photo.

OH my... you know... the pictures below are a lovely couple who enjoying their game... I secretly snap these photos.. Haha... Guess who??

Well... my mother was enjoying her drum skill, while my daddy looked so serious, haha... I guess he was still figuring how to play the game...

Haha... He was laughing now... Haha.. I guess he won in the game... Haha...

I was exhausted after playing the whole day...

Always the happiest moment passed fast... Time flies..... The last day.. before going back, we went to eat "bak kut teh"... Haha...

I snap this photo... my grandmother.. who has been taking care of me since young... Haha... She is old now... Look how fat am I, but I guess you never imagine how thin my grandmother is... Haha.. I snatched her food...

Haha... my father requested me to take a photo for him together with Xuan Xuan and Yan Yan... Well... last day... seems... unwilling to leave...

Playing camera with sister while driving home.... Once in the while have to show who is the author of this blog mah.... Haha...

Some cute photos attached below.. Haha... Dont angry at me, daddy... I just took them for fun while you taking the petrol.. haha...

Urm..... let me bite the ice cream... Hot day
Hey.... My daddy didnt buy for me.. He just eat outside alone..... ICE-CREAM~~~~~~~~~

Hmph... Ice-cream... hmm... how is the taste like? Let me bite it properly...

Hmm~~~~ Nice... satisfy...

Dedicated to my mother:
Mama... Sorry I couldn't celebrate birthday with you today. Actually didi, qian qian, yan yan and I wanted to give you suprise.. but since you say because grandma just passed away, couldnt celebrate... So I would like to say something to you through here. Mama... I love you.. Thanks for loving me so much... And We LOVE YOU !! Muax.. Just to send a small gift here... Please click the video below :

Friendship

2008-10-08T04:28:00.000-07:00

Hui yan ---- one of my best friends, since secondary school. We had been same class for one year only, but so, I treated her as my best friend. She was at my left seat last time. I remember that we both are at the first row when we were in Form Three. However, we were separated after that. We went to Gamma class, which was in the same class as my sister, Ying Qian, and I was in Delta class. But somehow we had fun in form three. We both always walked together, going to class, or walked out from class, heading the place we waited for our parents to pick us up.

Nowadays I am having my holidays. While having my holidays, i kept my stuff( obviously they are messy and scatter all around) , i accidentally found out there was a piece of paper i kept in my locker. Usually this locker was locked and I seldom open it. I do not know I have a sudden thought to open it. I open it with my key which i kept in my purse. There are all the postcards and letters that received from my friends. Haha.. Quite a number of that. By right, I found a piece of paper, which I wrote between Hui Yan and I. Haha..

Dear Hui Yan, do you still remember what did you wrote on this piece of paper? Oh well, I guess you have totally forget about it. Haha.. Well, friends do write some promises and secrets between both of us. Haha, not to worry that too much, is not a secret, but is our date. Do you still remember what date it is? Well, to refresh your memory, i scan this for you...

(Written specially for Hui Yan)

haha... sorry, it is a bit blur on the scanning. hehe.. got chance i show you the original copy..

Well... those days kids love to do such, write promises, diaries, letters. I am one of them, haha...

If got chance , we meet up ya.. kind of miss you these few days.. Don't always only accompany your boy boy, once awhile must accompany me to ya....

Now i only realise that we do not have pictures taken together. If there is a chance we take together ya!

Hope you become a doctor soon... Good luck ya!

suppose to be a happy day

2008-09-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

The whole morning my eyes lips keeps on "jumping". I was so horrified as today is my last paper, I thought that perhaps I will not do well in my exam. But the worst case was, my grandmother passed away. I was looking forward to my genting trip, which is suppose to be on Monday, however it seems that instead of going to genting, I have to back to johore to pay my respect to my beloved grandmother. I planned to visit her after my genting trip, however, it was too late. She has gone. So coincidence that today my brother also finished his last paper, I guess my grandmother also hope that she will not give us trouble. I lost my grandpa when I was young, he loved me a lot. Although I was not that close to dad's mother, however I do love her a lot.

Every time I met her, she smiled and laughed. Her favourite past time was her mahjong. I remember when I was young, she sat on her chair, teaching us how to play mahjong. My brother, sister and I , three of us, sitting theere quietly and play together. Everytime we are back home, she will reserve the biggest room for us. I do not dare to think how will i react tonight. To tell the truth, I am scare. I scare people around me will leave me. It has been a long time I didn't see her. How long was it? I couldnt remember. Perhaps there were few years. I had been nagging to go back home, but no one is free. Everyone is busy with their work.

Grandma.... rest in peace . At least I know, you will go to the heaven. Because .... you are a nice and happy person. We love you a lot.

After reading this, please silence for 3min as a respect to my beloved grandma.

Dedicated for Ms Sze Wang

2008-08-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

The past 3 days she stayed at my house and fall in love with a song. Whenever she listens to that song, she will open her mouth. I guess she must be enjoying the song a lot. For a surprise, I would like to present this song to you .Hope you like it... ^^

Remark: this song is adopted from youtube. Haha. Thanks for providing ya!

my sister's competition

2008-08-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

Please note that the words written in colours represents different people saying their own. Mine is stated in orange colour. XD

Today my sister is having her choir competition in Subang Parade. It is a inter-primary competition. She woke up so early today, and woke me up.. Haha.. Early in the morning she has dressed her self up, keep calling me to wake up. Actually that moment is about 10am ad. haha. I know I am a lazy pig. But... I was just too tired mah... Then woke me up for breakfast. So I and Sze Wang faster clean up and prepare to go for breakfast.

Look. She is so anxious to have her competition soon. Cute right? Of course, she is my naughty sister, YEO YING XIN!!

Haha... The next part is the best. Hehe. She needs to make up before going up to stage. I know that actually she is very looking forward to it, however she keeps saying she does't want to make up. You know, kids also have their own dignity nowadays.

Hehe... cute right. After putting up the lipstick, the saliva keeps dripping from her mouth. Haha. Besides, she keeps lift up her mouth and couldn't open her mouth properly. Poor girl... She laughed so loud. Haha. Mother and I also found that something black in her teeth. Haha. Dirty girl, didn't brush her teeth properly.

I wanted to put up my mama make up video.. very funny one... But mama said she will kill me if i upload it.... :(

About 1.30 pm, the competition started. How well do they sing? Hmm... I guess let you guys be the judge...

The colourful peacock group versus the penguin group... Do you agree with me? Hehe.. I feel I am so bad

Personally i think that their song is nice. Perhaps I am more familiar to this song compared to others. Can you find my sister? Ya.. The one i keep recording on is my sister. Haha. Doesn't smile much, I guess she must be very nervous up there. "Yan yan!! Gambate! " I shouted in heart of course. Haha..

I recoreded the rest of the team, however i didn't want to post up as you may find them singing too long. I guess if I posted up there, you have to take very long time see the video.

Additional picture are taken while waiting for the result to be out. Please refer pictures below:

See.. his ice-cream i s dripping. Ice- cr ea m --- children' favourite!

Hey.... I know you want my ice-cream.. Don't keep looking at me... I won't share with you!

my heart grumbles: How stingy she is...... :(

Hmm.. How come my ice-cream is getting less and less... Did she eat it?

Hei... How can she think me like that? I know I wanted to eat that too..... ^^

Mama... Actually I also want to eat ice-cream....

Hmm.. Wait till the competition ends first ya..

Mama... hehe... I also want!!! Can??

Oh no... my lipstick is gone. I better replace some first....

Walau..... I don't even put lipstick leh...

Yeah.. is my turn to snap. Hmm.. Sorry to say that.. I am not photogenic. Haha.. Sorry ya! Left side is my pretty mama, right side is my cute sister... Me?? Can't you count?

The excited part. Prize giving ceremony... Hmm.. After judging, do you think which school is the winner? There are 6 schools in total. Just wanted to tell something to Yan :Yan, no matter you lose or win, you are the best to me. Don't give up ya!

Sorry... The video was taken a bit shaky as my hand were really tired... Hehe.

Hehe... Amazing right? My sister school got the first place. They were screaming the moment the first runner up is announced. Kids are jumping and hoping around, especially the fat boy. Oh my... he is still capable to jumped. Haha...They are invited to sing the second time. Personally i think that the second time sang better than the first time. So... Please listen to the next song.. Is really nice!

After singing... Haha... Victory..They won!!!!

It has been a tiring day after the competition ends. Haha. Anyway after taking the prize, the first thing what sister did was....

Mama... can i buy ice-cream now?
Mama? hmm... I do not want ice-cream now... I want SUSHI
Okay... OK....

Poor mama... loving her both little kids so much... ^^

Of course, my sister is also a pretty "lady". Even though how tired we are, the next thing she is going to do is.............................

SHOPPING!!!!

Jie jie... nice right?

Yes ............... Yan... Can you choose faster?

Girls love shopping... Shopping is everything...

Have a nice day!!

assignment, exams, everything

2008-08-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

I am not really in a good mood at the moment. Haha. Many things come along so sudden until there is no time allowing me to breath on. How nice if I have a good friend along with, studying hard with me, sharing everything with me and discuss with me. I will till the day where one of them will appear with me. I will share what i have to her. I know... one day you will be there!

Sze wang cutie dancing

2008-08-16T05:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry everyone have been trying to rotate the video, but couldnt change it. I really admire her having such dancing skill. Hehe.. The 1st part, while she is laughing really very cute. Hehe. So adorable. Haha... Nice right?

New Karaoke in my mother tuition centre

2008-08-16T00:41:00.000-07:00

My mother has set up a new karaoke set in her tuition centre. Last thursday, I will suppose to pick up my sister and sent her back home. However, my mother called me to stay back and enjoy the environment there. Hehe. A lot of kids singing the new hops sounds, which I don't even know what are they singing. Haha, I could just conclude that nowadays kids are really "In". Haha.

Note that there are a lot of throphy above the television.Hehe. Obviously they are my military successes. Haha. Not only me lar. Include my siblings and I . But sad to say, I am just good in such competition, story telling, singing, piano, but definetely is not in academically wise. Dont worry, I will be working much more harder for future.

Those picture above are the parents of some kids. Haha. Guess what are they singing? They both are singing old buddy love songs. Weird right, both men are singing loving each other, title : ONLY YOU. Haha. Pity the kid, the kid felt so frustrated, waiting his daddy and keep nagging his dad, :"Daddy, I want to go home! I dont want old songs."
At that moment, is already 7.30pm. Haha, my mother and I also keep on waiting. But anyway, is a fun day!

Hehe. Just for a little free advertisement, my mother tuition centre is located at SS19/1A,Subang Jaya. If you ever have kids, please come to my mother tuition centre. Haha. I think my mother is going to kill me now. Of course, if I have kid in future, I will let my children go to my mother's tuition centre.haha. Good quality leh! Hahaha

My best friend

2008-08-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

Just to introduce one of my best friends, hehe... Her name is sze wang.. You may name her as "Wang Wang". Hehe. Basically just feel free and nothing to do while i was studying hard just now. Hehe. I guess she will be killing me afterward. Have a nice day everyone ya!